Athabm's posts
Posted in I'm ALIIIIIIVE!
Posted 4 years ago
@Totalanimefan: Yep!
And also it might help my dad get a diagnosis to help him feel better, too, so it's nice to know that I can help out my family by getting a diagnosis for me.
And also it might help my dad get a diagnosis to help him feel better, too, so it's nice to know that I can help out my family by getting a diagnosis for me.
Posted in My Foot Hates Me, I Swear...
Posted 4 years ago
@Amber Lynne: You're right, and patience is sometimes really hard when things hurt. I hope you're having a better day than before.
Posted in I'm ALIIIIIIVE!
Posted 4 years ago
@Totalanimefan: Thanks, I appreciate the encouragement. I feel pretty positive, because knowing what's going on is a huge part of being able to get stable/get better. I spent enough years feeling confused and discouraged, just wanting to know why I was ill.
@sunny: Definitely it does
@sunny: Definitely it does
Posted in My Foot Hates Me, I Swear...
Posted 4 years ago
I hope the pain is subsiding. Foot/lower leg pain sucks, and the world is set up mostly for people to have to walk around places which makes it hard to rest your feet when they are in pain.
My ankles used to twist all the time because my feet were sooooooooo flat as a kid, and I only slowly developed very small arches. I went to the physical therapist recently about it, since I keep pulling a tendon on the inside of my ankle and I was worried I would tear it and then only have surgery as an option. The PT agreed with me that it's likely Posterior Tibial Tendonitis, and gave me some stuff I can do to help, but it hasn't gotten rid of the lingering pain, so I empathize with your recurring, chronic pain.
My ankles used to twist all the time because my feet were sooooooooo flat as a kid, and I only slowly developed very small arches. I went to the physical therapist recently about it, since I keep pulling a tendon on the inside of my ankle and I was worried I would tear it and then only have surgery as an option. The PT agreed with me that it's likely Posterior Tibial Tendonitis, and gave me some stuff I can do to help, but it hasn't gotten rid of the lingering pain, so I empathize with your recurring, chronic pain.
Posted in I'm ALIIIIIIVE!
Posted 4 years ago
@PurpdaBurpPurp: Thanks for the well wishes - I have another doctor appointment with a specialist, but I'm in normal fatigue mode instead of ultra fatigue mode atm. I walked to the art store (its just a few blocks away) and got some watercolor paper and brushes today. I'm gonna actively learn to use my watercolor pencils after I've had them for more than a decade and barely used them. I hope you were able to find something fun to do today.
@sunny: Thanks! I know what the diagnosis is probably gonna be, it's just not official yet. I'm gonna add it to my previous chronic diagnoses. Gotta love genetic issues that get ignored your whole life until you can't even drag yourself out of bed, lol.
@koneko: Thanks! Not knowing is horrible, you're so right. My doctor and I think we know what's up, but I gotta visit the specialist (a hematologist) to verify it, and help me figure out a treatment plan.
@Totalanimefan: Thanks, and OMG being fatigued all the time is super annoying, yes. I just gotta wait a couple weeks for my appointment with a specialist to confirm my suspected diagnosis. But after years of not knowing, a couple weeks is sort of bearable. I'm just impatient to get on treatment and have more of my life back.
@sunny: Thanks! I know what the diagnosis is probably gonna be, it's just not official yet. I'm gonna add it to my previous chronic diagnoses. Gotta love genetic issues that get ignored your whole life until you can't even drag yourself out of bed, lol.
@koneko: Thanks! Not knowing is horrible, you're so right. My doctor and I think we know what's up, but I gotta visit the specialist (a hematologist) to verify it, and help me figure out a treatment plan.
@Totalanimefan: Thanks, and OMG being fatigued all the time is super annoying, yes. I just gotta wait a couple weeks for my appointment with a specialist to confirm my suspected diagnosis. But after years of not knowing, a couple weeks is sort of bearable. I'm just impatient to get on treatment and have more of my life back.
Posted in I'm ALIIIIIIVE!
Posted 4 years ago
I've been checking in on Voltra daily, I just have been super low on energy the past month or so. Chronic fatigue is super annoying, but I think we're finally about to have a real diagnosis for me so I can actually fix it. *fingers crossed*
Anyway, I missed having the energy to chat here, and I wanted to say that I'm still hanging around, just less able to participate in chats, but still wanting to be social.
What's up with everyone?
Anyway, I missed having the energy to chat here, and I wanted to say that I'm still hanging around, just less able to participate in chats, but still wanting to be social.
What's up with everyone?
Posted in Why being "So ADHD" isn't a joke
Posted 4 years ago
You know what phrase I hate even more than people joking about being 'so ADHD'? 'High-functioning.'
That's the phrase thrown in my face when I go ask for help from some medical/mental health professionals, or talk about being undiagnosed until I sought out a diagnosis in my late 20s because I was tired of not having access to the support I needed. Unfortunately, I don't seem to react well to medication even though my dad and my brothers seem to handle it fine.
At least my dad and brothers understand how exhausting appearing 'high-functioning' really is, but some doctors are just cruel and clueless, and don't actually understand ADHD at all, or try to tell me it can be fixed with diet, etc. Lol. I don't need to be fixed, even if that were possible, I like my brain and I just want support so I can be successful in my life. I do find that I tend to make friends with a lot of people who also have ADHD, which is a huge help when I just need to not be judged for not being neurotypical. But it still hurts when other friends make comments about things that ADHD people do, not understanding the reasons behind the behaviors, and just jumping to judgement rather than trying to be compassionate.
P.S. My brothers and I LOVED reading as kids, and I used to read books at school while the teacher was giving lessons, because I'd already finished the homework for that night while she was teaching, because I would never do homework if I actually had to take it home to work on it. Same with if an assignment was uninspiring, I could never find a way to get started, so I had either really good grades, or missing assignments, but I'd also just forget about the assignments that didn't interest me, so I didn't even know I was missing them. For this reason, I didn't want to go to college right out of highschool, but my parents insisted I did until I got too depressed and stopped going to class. Getting diagnosed allowed me to research and develop actual study strategies so I could return to school many years later and complete my degree - also it was easier to pay attention when I was a bit older because ADHD brains are a few years behind neurotypical brains in some areas. That's part of why it can be more apparent that a person has ADHD when they're an adult, since the gap in the ability to manage time, self-regulate, etc. becomes more obvious, since adults are supposed to have gotten a handle on those things to a large degree, and people with ADHD just aren't really consistently able to, without assistance.
That's the phrase thrown in my face when I go ask for help from some medical/mental health professionals, or talk about being undiagnosed until I sought out a diagnosis in my late 20s because I was tired of not having access to the support I needed. Unfortunately, I don't seem to react well to medication even though my dad and my brothers seem to handle it fine.
At least my dad and brothers understand how exhausting appearing 'high-functioning' really is, but some doctors are just cruel and clueless, and don't actually understand ADHD at all, or try to tell me it can be fixed with diet, etc. Lol. I don't need to be fixed, even if that were possible, I like my brain and I just want support so I can be successful in my life. I do find that I tend to make friends with a lot of people who also have ADHD, which is a huge help when I just need to not be judged for not being neurotypical. But it still hurts when other friends make comments about things that ADHD people do, not understanding the reasons behind the behaviors, and just jumping to judgement rather than trying to be compassionate.
P.S. My brothers and I LOVED reading as kids, and I used to read books at school while the teacher was giving lessons, because I'd already finished the homework for that night while she was teaching, because I would never do homework if I actually had to take it home to work on it. Same with if an assignment was uninspiring, I could never find a way to get started, so I had either really good grades, or missing assignments, but I'd also just forget about the assignments that didn't interest me, so I didn't even know I was missing them. For this reason, I didn't want to go to college right out of highschool, but my parents insisted I did until I got too depressed and stopped going to class. Getting diagnosed allowed me to research and develop actual study strategies so I could return to school many years later and complete my degree - also it was easier to pay attention when I was a bit older because ADHD brains are a few years behind neurotypical brains in some areas. That's part of why it can be more apparent that a person has ADHD when they're an adult, since the gap in the ability to manage time, self-regulate, etc. becomes more obvious, since adults are supposed to have gotten a handle on those things to a large degree, and people with ADHD just aren't really consistently able to, without assistance.
Posted in People should dress according to their bodytype. [rant]
Posted 4 years ago
All the super thin people I've personally known have been so thin because of medical conditions, and were not trying to be thin, so I never assume that being super thin is something done for attention.
But honestly? I don't care what type of clothes people wear on their bodies. I like to wear looser clothes now than I used to, because of medical conditions that mean my circulation cuts off extremely easily, and my increased sensitivity to being squeezed by snug clothes. There are so many comfort reasons to choose clothes other than what I look like to other people.
But honestly? I don't care what type of clothes people wear on their bodies. I like to wear looser clothes now than I used to, because of medical conditions that mean my circulation cuts off extremely easily, and my increased sensitivity to being squeezed by snug clothes. There are so many comfort reasons to choose clothes other than what I look like to other people.
Posted in You all help make me happy.
Posted 4 years ago
@Totalanimefan: Awww, I feel the same way.
Although, sometimes I feel bad that I'm too exhausted to reply to conversations, so I leave them hanging for a week.
Still, I enjoy the conversations that happen on Voltra
Although, sometimes I feel bad that I'm too exhausted to reply to conversations, so I leave them hanging for a week.
Still, I enjoy the conversations that happen on Voltra
Posted in I made a paper crane
Posted 4 years ago
So teeny! I love it
Posted in Do You Like Bread, Too?
Posted 4 years ago
Yum!
I need to bake more bread because I absolutely love it
I use the white bread recipe from the Joy of Cooking, and it turns out perfect every time. I attribute that to the recipe, because I've made a lot of bread that wasn't what I was hoping for.
I need to bake more bread because I absolutely love it
I use the white bread recipe from the Joy of Cooking, and it turns out perfect every time. I attribute that to the recipe, because I've made a lot of bread that wasn't what I was hoping for.
Posted in I did it
Posted 4 years ago
@Ruby: Yeah, the geodes are made of polymer clay. I decided to make them on a whim and the method to make them just kind of popped into my head, and amazingly it worked out. I'm gonna make more, with other crystal colors, because they're fun to make.
I'm knitting with some even smaller needles atm, and it's super ridiculous. I'm amazed it's actually turning out okay, because the needles are like sewing needle thickness, and very bendy. I tried them in the past and was too annoyed by them, so I put them away until now.
I'm glad you've found a way to enjoy taking photos of yourself and move past self loathing.
I'm knitting with some even smaller needles atm, and it's super ridiculous. I'm amazed it's actually turning out okay, because the needles are like sewing needle thickness, and very bendy. I tried them in the past and was too annoyed by them, so I put them away until now.
I'm glad you've found a way to enjoy taking photos of yourself and move past self loathing.
Posted in Yo. Just checking this out.
Posted 4 years ago
Welcome! I also thought this site reminded me of early Gaia, and now that I have the Vibrance Day theme selected for how I view the site, it reminds me of that even more, back when Gaia was pink and blue.
It sounds like you're really making the most of culinary school, and enjoying yourself. I love pelmeni and blini and I would definitely try meat jelly, especially if it's similar to tendon in texture.
It sounds like you're really making the most of culinary school, and enjoying yourself. I love pelmeni and blini and I would definitely try meat jelly, especially if it's similar to tendon in texture.
Posted in I did it
Posted 4 years ago
@Ruby: I make a variety of things, but I've often knit for my bjds and smaller dolls using extremely tiny needles, and made random stuff from clay and polymer clay. Recently, I've been making tiny geodes and I'm putting together some miniature terrariums and bonsai
I have an instagram for my dolls and miniatures: ensatiny
I have new things I need to photograph and post there
Edit: I just saw the instagram convo from earlier, and I hate when people expect you to follow them on IG. I also don't post selfies because I don't want random people to have access to photos of me. On my personal IG, it's not private, but it's only photos of cute plants and cats
I have an instagram for my dolls and miniatures: ensatiny
I have new things I need to photograph and post there
Edit: I just saw the instagram convo from earlier, and I hate when people expect you to follow them on IG. I also don't post selfies because I don't want random people to have access to photos of me. On my personal IG, it's not private, but it's only photos of cute plants and cats