Jolly's posts

@totalanimefan:
thats very nice <3 probably cause a lot of us had time off from work

love the themed avi btw! very cute

Thank you you guys XD
The far right one is my favorite one too, so giddy looking.

I'm also hiding them all around my partner's home and he's incredibly amused by this

@priestess of pie:
thank you! and yeah, I know I'll be fine. The clinic doesn't pay as well but its income at the very least, while I search for other things ;v;

@0v7:
RIGHT? Its really childish. She's literally trying to guilt trip me, trying to make it sound like she's bending over backwards but... she isn't even showing up at work? When I had to go fill out my paperwork, she pulled a no show and the receptionists didn't know what was going on, but they helped me instead. Then I called her after like uhhh what gives, and she said "oh I took the day off"
uh what
I did find out later that she's in the process of a divorce, which like sure, I tried being considerate of that. BUT AT LEAST TEXT ME YOU WONT COME and reschedule. Don't make your problem mine :vanora_neutral:

I just wont respond to anything. Gonna make sure I get paid for the stuff I did have to do, then after that its a block from me~

@totalanimefan:
Thats good though! more activity on the site :D

I wont get toooo into the details, but the short story version is this new massage job SUCKS. I haven't been able to work with clients, I've been pushed off, insulted, and what 3 times I've been able to go in to do something, I was met with the most unethical situations by the staff there. It was a bit extreme and mind blowing, VERY not okay in the massage industry, and in the end I was made to perform 2 massages on staff which I was supposed to be paid a massage wage for--thats what manager said in interview--but afterwords they're like "nah thats training you only get $12 (min wage here)"
But if it was training, I should be paid for every hour I was there, not just 60 minutes worth. Literally says in my contract that if I'm not paid a massage wage then I need to be paid an hourly wage at minimum. So they're really playing some stupid games and dancing in too many grey legal areas lol Plus, I know how to massage, so idk why they kept trying to train me in what I just got a license to prove I already know how to do... idk it was weird and they wouldn't listen to me. I started worrying about my bills, I'm digging into my savings just to get food now, and I'm like GUYS PLS I need a job, and they just keep dancing around the bush and pushing me off on the back burner. If they could be transparent enough to at least give me an ETA on when they'd figure out my schedule, I'd fuss less, yknow?

Its been what... 2 months? Since they contacted me. THEY. asked. ME. to work there. KNOWING I didn't have my license yet at the time. But I've had it for weeks now and they're still pushing me off, leaving me on read for days and just being sketchy af. When they do talk to me, they treat me terribly because I'm a fresh graduate. Bish only has one year more experience than I do -___-

My school's clinic isn't much better, but at least the people give a shit, and I know that they're willing to put me on a schedule asap. I already work one day a week there, for internship (but still get paid for it starting this week). A lot of stuff goes wrong there and I get very stressed out by the miscommunications and stupidity, but I at least know the people mean well even if they're kinda infuriating sometimes. I talked with them about my situation and they listened with empathy.
I mentioned the name of the manager I've been struggling with in the other job, and the girls at my clinic stopped, turned their chairs to face me and gave me this big BEWARE. That manager was a former student, more recently than she claims, and evidently she doesn't have the best reputation. They warned me that she's very much not a friendly person and she plays a lot of mind games. I already noticed that anyway but having it said by another was like "o dam, glad it isn't just me"

So I thought about it for like 3 days, then talked to one of my former instructors. Apparently she used to work at that job years ago, and she was flailing her jacket sleeves around like OH NO GOOD LUCK GETTING PAID, THEY'RE SHADY!

So today I decided to contact that manager and tell her I wont be working there anymore. I wrote it short and sweet but with respect and professional tones. But oh boy, she ain't happy.
After being put on read all week, now I have incoming spam texts and calls from her. I kinda dont wanna pick up based on what her texts look like lol
This person is very distressed and acting out on emotion and defensiveness, cause I said I need to go with a job that had a faster progression for me starting. That isn't personal? Just the human need of I NEED TO WORK NOW BILLS ARE COMING XD


Also worth noting that my clinic job encourages growth and if I were to find another job that pays better, they would see me off happily. There's no possessiveness and they're always proud of their therapists who choose to move on, and those who choose to stay long term. So its not the end of the line! Just the start, and I told myself if I cant afford a home on this wage, then I'll at least try to afford a therapist for moi |D

I spent much of yesterday painting these guys
They were something super cheap from hobby lobby, little wooden things.


I DEFINITELY need to get myself a new set of brushes, it was a mad struggle trying to make these look clean with 20+ year old paint brushes that are fraying. My mother bought me a little wooden nutcracker to paint as well, just for the fun of it, so new brushes might have to come along on my next paycheck XD

@totalanimefan:
Oh sweet~
I didn't realize you made a thread before posting mine xD

@koneko:
Thats a really good way to look at it, actually. And all good things to be grateful for <3

Its hard getting into the spirit of thanksgiving this year. The past tenday has been almost harder on me than this year as a whole. Plentiful chaos.
But I can be very grateful that this holiday has halted all of that and I have a day where I'm not required to do anything but relax, have a delicious green tea latte and focus on the good around me.

I have a few people to be grateful for this year overall, and this site is definitely included. You guys are always here for me and each other when the year gets rough and that's amazing.

But I seriously cannot get over how amazing my partner has been. When things get rough again and I'm falling apart, he can pull me out of it faster than anyone has. We've been together for almost 4 months now but he still blows my mind, I've never been with a person like this before.
I worried a lot when he took me in recently, when my family troubles got to be too much, and I thought it was too soon for us to live together. Especially when this home is very small, its a student apartment (and yes I'm not supposed to even be visiting here, let alone live here, but they dont monitor anything. not like a dorm), so there's not much ability to spread out. But he gets so giddy about having me around and we have a lot of fun, his room mates are very kind to me and also are very supportive people.

I get a lot of grief from family and jobs, but I always have a safe space to be in, that is now a place I call home.
I could not be more happy about that and I appreciate these people being in my life so much. As well as a healthy partnership that feels so easy to be in, and soooo grounding.


tldr; tell me what you're grateful for! This year is really rough for many or most of us, but maybe taking this holiday to stop and think about what HASN'T gone wrong can be healthy for the brain <3



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I ALSO WANNA ADD
I want to start an art shop on here very soon. I need to start rolling in some orbs.
So if you want to be on a ping list for that lemme know!

apparently vampire cupping is a thing

:vanora_xd:
dont think I'd ever be willing to do this type of cupping! I like my gentle silicone cups that I can slide around and massage with

@Kitalpha Hart:
Yes, I'm stupidly excited! Eager to go to more work there, I wish I could get slammed with shifts already lmao

@milkshake:
I dont think it could "ruin" the skin (considering we dont leave them on for long) but I definitely need to do more research on the adverse effects. I only really know the health contraindications and the benefits to deeper tissues and circulation.

That sucks though, I had some mean people at my school as well. But overall it was still enjoyable since it was more about massaging anyways. Once I stopped having to rely on students and could just massage clients instead, I was pretty excited

Day 1 of new job! I'm getting paid to learn more modalities of massage/manual therapy that I've been wanting to learn anyways.
We were using silicon cups so there's no heat and glass, but just a simple concept of pinching the cup to create suction. It can still leave bruising but we dont park them for long, so no one ended up with any of those crazy looking dark circles on their backs lol Our method is quite discrete while still being effective. I had it done on me for the first time too and it basically sucked my menstrual cramps through a straw and out my body xD
I loved it.
I want to study it more in depth in the future but I get to practice these ones on the other therapists until I'm confident in using it on public clients.

Also got to learn new methods of hot stone massage which has been my favorite modality from school. It helps my client while also healing my hands too, so a hella win/win!

In all, my first day was pretty friggin awesome :D
I'm only worried about forgetting where everything goes or forgetting what to restock for products we use in the rooms, or where those come from.
And not getting lost in the twisty hallways..

My partner told me I can live with him for a few months until we can establish another plan (we already had planned to move together mid next year when his lease ends here).
Its iffy cause he lives in a student apartment where visitors aren't even allowed at all cause of covid, let alone someone moving in like this. But they don't really monitor people or the rooms so I only have to hide when IT comes in to fix their wifi.

I'll have to go minimalist to fit without making his space smaller. But he keeps telling me to bring my whole computer setup, so I can keep drawing. which it is big, and he's just like "take my desk"
like dude you're gonna get so sick of me if you sacrifice your small space lol

I seriously appreciate this person though
I was completely at my witts end last night, just to the point I felt seriously crazy, my head went to such a chaotic place. But he rationalized it so much and made me feel so normal, and he gives me such a safe place to be. mentally and physically.


when his lease ends in june, we already had plans to get a proper apartment together. by then I'll have my money in order with this new job

@Kitalpha Hart:
Yeah, I definitely need another long break from them at the very least. Its hard cutting people off sometimes, I think the desire to have a family at all kind of stops me from doing that. But I'll be happy enough just to find a home so I won't have to deal with them anymore. Then I'll only see them for major holidays, until I leave this state. Then I'll just keep distancing.

It'll hurt a lot either way. It's really kind of strange how attached I am to people who consistently treat me like garbage and do painful things like this.