Jolly's posts

*update
things have been resolved, I couldn't be more relieved.
It seemed like something happened twice but after enough communication, I understand that he didn't get better after the first episode and he was trying to bottle it and force himself to act normal. But now we've cleared some of his fears and acknowledged any that might remain or resurface in the future, when life gets complicated. I'm happy that I could see all that weight drop off of him and his confidence coming back. Holiday season and seasonal depression is just too much for him right now, so after christmas he'll probably feel more relaxed again. ;v;

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THERE'S A SAMSUNG TABLET?

-begins researching-

Also, I've had an ipad for a bit now and tbh I kind of love it
except for the fact that it is an apple product and I cannot have my clip studio paint software on it without having to pay monthly :<
so I just use their procreate for lineart/flat colors and then send it over to my pc via google drive, to then shade and detail art on there with my desktop setup. Wish that last part can be portable!

I'm late to the thread, but I friggin love CSP! I use it religiously, so if you have any questions hmu <3
I've never used Krita so I'm not sure what features you're used to.

My primary tools on CSP are the Mapping Pen for my lineart, and I've been using the vector layers for that also (makes resizing and adjusting lines a bit smoother)
I also use the dense watercolor brush for some of my shading, smooth watercolor if I want something even more soft.
CSP spoils me with blending modes--there are so many, and they are beautiful. I use them a lot!
Airbrush is also amazing and I usually set up a custom eraser that has the airbrush effect, in case I need to smoothly adjust things.

but there's a lot more to play with to go even further <3

@Totalanimefan:
Yumm that also sounds nice!
usually I prefer to drink a spiced chai mix by the David Rio brand, its also soooo good
but its fun trying new things that end up being good too <3

by cafe mori
is SO DANG GOOD I cant get over it.
Maybe its cause I never had a green tea latte before but like, for an instant latte its soooo good
sweet but not too sweet
just
muah

thats all

I usually avoid black friday like the plague--and now there really is one! lmao
I don't like the chaos and pressure on retail staff so I wait for cyber monday or dont bother if I dont need anything. xD

that lipstick is a pretty neat color though! I love grey shades

@totalanimefan:
thats very nice <3 probably cause a lot of us had time off from work

love the themed avi btw! very cute

Thank you you guys XD
The far right one is my favorite one too, so giddy looking.

I'm also hiding them all around my partner's home and he's incredibly amused by this

@priestess of pie:
thank you! and yeah, I know I'll be fine. The clinic doesn't pay as well but its income at the very least, while I search for other things ;v;

@0v7:
RIGHT? Its really childish. She's literally trying to guilt trip me, trying to make it sound like she's bending over backwards but... she isn't even showing up at work? When I had to go fill out my paperwork, she pulled a no show and the receptionists didn't know what was going on, but they helped me instead. Then I called her after like uhhh what gives, and she said "oh I took the day off"
uh what
I did find out later that she's in the process of a divorce, which like sure, I tried being considerate of that. BUT AT LEAST TEXT ME YOU WONT COME and reschedule. Don't make your problem mine :vanora_neutral:

I just wont respond to anything. Gonna make sure I get paid for the stuff I did have to do, then after that its a block from me~

@totalanimefan:
Thats good though! more activity on the site :D

I wont get toooo into the details, but the short story version is this new massage job SUCKS. I haven't been able to work with clients, I've been pushed off, insulted, and what 3 times I've been able to go in to do something, I was met with the most unethical situations by the staff there. It was a bit extreme and mind blowing, VERY not okay in the massage industry, and in the end I was made to perform 2 massages on staff which I was supposed to be paid a massage wage for--thats what manager said in interview--but afterwords they're like "nah thats training you only get $12 (min wage here)"
But if it was training, I should be paid for every hour I was there, not just 60 minutes worth. Literally says in my contract that if I'm not paid a massage wage then I need to be paid an hourly wage at minimum. So they're really playing some stupid games and dancing in too many grey legal areas lol Plus, I know how to massage, so idk why they kept trying to train me in what I just got a license to prove I already know how to do... idk it was weird and they wouldn't listen to me. I started worrying about my bills, I'm digging into my savings just to get food now, and I'm like GUYS PLS I need a job, and they just keep dancing around the bush and pushing me off on the back burner. If they could be transparent enough to at least give me an ETA on when they'd figure out my schedule, I'd fuss less, yknow?

Its been what... 2 months? Since they contacted me. THEY. asked. ME. to work there. KNOWING I didn't have my license yet at the time. But I've had it for weeks now and they're still pushing me off, leaving me on read for days and just being sketchy af. When they do talk to me, they treat me terribly because I'm a fresh graduate. Bish only has one year more experience than I do -___-

My school's clinic isn't much better, but at least the people give a shit, and I know that they're willing to put me on a schedule asap. I already work one day a week there, for internship (but still get paid for it starting this week). A lot of stuff goes wrong there and I get very stressed out by the miscommunications and stupidity, but I at least know the people mean well even if they're kinda infuriating sometimes. I talked with them about my situation and they listened with empathy.
I mentioned the name of the manager I've been struggling with in the other job, and the girls at my clinic stopped, turned their chairs to face me and gave me this big BEWARE. That manager was a former student, more recently than she claims, and evidently she doesn't have the best reputation. They warned me that she's very much not a friendly person and she plays a lot of mind games. I already noticed that anyway but having it said by another was like "o dam, glad it isn't just me"

So I thought about it for like 3 days, then talked to one of my former instructors. Apparently she used to work at that job years ago, and she was flailing her jacket sleeves around like OH NO GOOD LUCK GETTING PAID, THEY'RE SHADY!

So today I decided to contact that manager and tell her I wont be working there anymore. I wrote it short and sweet but with respect and professional tones. But oh boy, she ain't happy.
After being put on read all week, now I have incoming spam texts and calls from her. I kinda dont wanna pick up based on what her texts look like lol
This person is very distressed and acting out on emotion and defensiveness, cause I said I need to go with a job that had a faster progression for me starting. That isn't personal? Just the human need of I NEED TO WORK NOW BILLS ARE COMING XD


Also worth noting that my clinic job encourages growth and if I were to find another job that pays better, they would see me off happily. There's no possessiveness and they're always proud of their therapists who choose to move on, and those who choose to stay long term. So its not the end of the line! Just the start, and I told myself if I cant afford a home on this wage, then I'll at least try to afford a therapist for moi |D

I spent much of yesterday painting these guys
They were something super cheap from hobby lobby, little wooden things.


I DEFINITELY need to get myself a new set of brushes, it was a mad struggle trying to make these look clean with 20+ year old paint brushes that are fraying. My mother bought me a little wooden nutcracker to paint as well, just for the fun of it, so new brushes might have to come along on my next paycheck XD

@totalanimefan:
Oh sweet~
I didn't realize you made a thread before posting mine xD

@koneko:
Thats a really good way to look at it, actually. And all good things to be grateful for <3