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Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

Ugh, I’m such an idiot, but I’d give anything to have a drink with him again. To laugh and joke about us being elder emos and shit while awkwardly flirting with each other.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

I hope this shift goes by fast. I want to go hoooommmeeee.

I wanna be alone to wallow in my loneliness. ;-;

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

Fuck it, I might text him tomorrow and see if he’s free this weekend.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

I’m tempted to text that one guy if he’s still interested in meeting up.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

I sampled some of the beers on tap just for an excuse to drink, and I’m feeling more sad and in my feelings. 😞

I miss spending time with him.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

I feel like such a lonely loser here….

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

It makes me feel more sad considering I had a crush on dude, got dumped, and have been feeling more lonely ever since.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

So, I’m at my bar job and both of the bartenders have their boyfriends here (one just got hired and is working tonight), and I feel like a 5th wheel. I just feel so lonely seeing them talk with their men, meanwhile I’m trying to keep busy since I don’t have anyone to talk to. :/

Posted in Ark's iPod Posted 2 months ago

Secrets - State Champs

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

The rational part of my brain is telling me that everything will be okay. Idk how true that is, but I hope so.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

Regardless, I’m sure the outcome would’ve been the same.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

Like, if I weren’t taking this medication, would I have perceived this entire situation differently? Would I have reacted the way I did and asked him that question? Would I be shaken to my core out of fear at the thought of sending a mere text?

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

In my life’s experience so far, I’ve learned that anything that causes me such intense anxiety isn’t going to work out or wasn’t meant to be. I should take this as a sign.

The increase in anxiety is also likely from my medication, so it’s been hard trying to rationalize that and keep a leveled head.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 2 months ago

Le sigh