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@moodyb: Great BTS songs/members! <3 I haven’t heard of a few of these songs though so I’ll look them up on YouTube soon :)

Yeah I recognised him in your signature xD

Yeah I agree. 🥰 I really hope to see BTS in concert & meet them one day but I’m scared about big crowds/if it will get sold out. What about you; have you seen them in concert? :o

Awesome GOT7 songs/members too! I love YoungJae’s smile <3

@totalanimefan: This year, I stopped taking amitriptyline after roughly 5 or 6?? months of use. In 2019, I took it for 4 or 5?? months before then once again abruptly stopped taking it; I was okay then & I think now…? I do still have terrible stomach indigestion/heartburn which I’m pretty sure (I hope) is something to be easily fixed (with exercise & fresh air/eating better & not too fast + drinking water more). I hope it’s not because of withdrawal or vaccine effects. 🙏 I am thinking about talking more about medication to my therapist again & taking maybe an SSRI or something; he has suggested before I could talk to my neurologist again or a /new/ psychiatrist (it has to be a new psychiatrist who actually respects me as an adult individual & one I can trust & is more empathic and understanding; I won’t expand why because bad memories & I’m a bit hesitant that my psychiatrist will think I’m psychotic if they knew all the meltdowns I had and okay 😢) specialising in the body. I trust my current therapist & neurologist though. I am open to taking a lesser medication than amitriptyline (I mean, I do like it & it does help me sleep & I know it gives me numb effects noticeably when my body remembers it after forgetting). I know my amnesia and headaches is from too much stress, and I know it’s very common thing and I hear about it in songs too like Numb by Linkin Park which I hear in a new light now. I do think I need some kind of new medication for my stress/anxiety/depression. I might mention to my neurologist that I am seeking medication advice specifically about my ocd/anxiety/depression/and expand more about my life situation at some point, before seeking a new psychiatrist; as I have seen my neurologist a few times now & got along well with him.

@moodyb: That’s awesome!! Yeah, both are amazing groups 🥰

My fave songs from BTS include: Louder then bombs, Blood Sweat & Tears, Fake Love, Black Swan, Lights, DNA, On, Blue & Grey. My fave members are Jungkook & V; they’re all great though & altogether they form a really strong group.

GOT7 faves: Poison, Breath, Not by the Moon, Crash & Burn, Hard Carry, Never Ever, Look. I also love Jackson Wang’s solo songs; Alone & Drive You Home. (All great), but my fave member is Jinyoung.

What about you? ^^

@totalanimefan: Thanks for your well wishes to him ^^ <3
I actually stopped taking amitriptyline abruptly without any consultation~ ^^;

I LOVE BTS & GOT7!! 💕

That’s really cool & incredible! Congratulations on you & your bf getting your dream jobs!! <3 And that’s great you had a good time in the music festival too :DD Amazing artists in that festival; Omg on Motionless In White, and Badflower !! :O That’s great you get to see a lot of artists you enjoy there 😊 I’m happy life is getting better for you 💕

@chiffonorange: Thankyou! ^^ My avatar is based off the character Tuesday Simmons from the anime Carole & Tuesday <3

@totalanimefan: ok I’ll stop watching conspiracy videos haha. That’s good though you & other US people are okay from the vaccine ^^ Yeah, I’ve seen anti-vaxxers in hospital too from COVID on the news. As well as people who had severe side effects from the vaccine too, like myocarditis/pericarditis. I decided to stop taking my antidepressant medication, amitriptyline, because I got anxious about heart contraindications long-term & if it would worsen with Pfizer. That makes sense on how the vaccine works :) Last month, I had a friend of mine land in hospital after he took AstraZeneca & I got really scared for him ; it turned out to be a severe anxiety attack from all the bad media hype about that particular vaccine. He’s fine now which is good :)

@totalanimefan: Oh I see :) That makes sense. Yeah I’ve heard about Delta. I’ve been kinda scaring myself with the vaccine conspiracy theories that sometimes pop up on YouTube (I especially got scared with vaccinated people dying in 2 years one - & also this is not conspiracy but I got scared of foreign substances in vaccines too). I can kind of see why the vaccine was made the way it is (I got Pfizer) with the spike protein - like, even with all my body problems, my immune / digestive / body systems in general does well in trying to fix it, so it doesn’t last too long. Although I should still take better care of my body. I kind of wish there was more to the vaccine though…?

@ruby: That sounds cool :) Does the IT work involve pixelising? :o

I’ve been thinking of a few art ideas, including: doing more art commissions for people’s OCs, BTS members all together, Nell Crain from Haunting of Hill House, Johnnie Guilbert with sunflowers from his new visualiser MV, and my OC + probably visually portray a bunch of roleplay threads/ideas I did in the past; I have so many roleplay verses I wrote that went unused, so I might as well draw them and bring them to new light XD 💕 Drawing my rp stuff will help me heal as well as writing rp every now and then~

@chiffonorange: I hope you feel okay after taking the vaccine too! 💕 I really like your avatar by the way 🥰

Only 97 seeds 😂

Malice Mizer

Linkin Park

@katsuki bakugo: Thank you very much! <3

Thankyou, Total & Lily ; it works now! :DD

@lilypoo: Can this thread please be locked? Thanks <3

@kory: Yeah it’s pretty awesome 💕 It’s very easy to chat to my twin ^^ One downside is when people mix our names up as we look very similar & think we’re the same person which isn’t true 😢

@ark: Hi! That sounds enjoyable xD The puzzles are very fun & relaxing to do, with the gorgeous art & efficiency of moving pieces around 😊

@chiffonorange: Yeah I was scared I might have more side effects other than arm hurting as I have a lot of body problems including high red blood cells which I somehow mixed up its seriousness with white cell disorder ^^; Thanks, I will try to relax/hydrate :3

@totalanimefan: Thanks, I will rest :) I really hope my country goes out of lockdown next month when majority of people are vaccinated. I really need help with seeing my therapist in person. I’m also pretty scared of the rising theory that there are more cases with more vaccinations. 😱 Yeah, art helps keep my mind off my worries :)

@ruby: That’s good :) What kind of projects? I’m planning to do more drawing soon ^_^