Jessamine's posts

I’m rewatching Haunting of Hill House for the third time :) I think the Crain family is very interesting, and I especially love Nell a lot :3

@cooperationiskey: Thank you <3 Sorry to hear about your bad experience/breakdown as well :( But that’s good you have new friends to write with ^_^

Rainbows are very pretty :3 I hope you find replacement for your rainbow set :)

@cooperationiskey: Yeah, I’ve recently started to get back into roleplaying this year; it used to be a very serious hobby many years ago until I had a long breakdown w my social anxiety & then finding it difficult for a long time to acclimate to bad memories/figuring out all my issues/move on. Roleplaying is now not nearly the same or as exciting as when I was happier before, but somehow it’s slowly still healing my heart. That’s awesome you used to do roleplaying too :) & yeah it may not be the same or threads may seem slow going but if it makes you happy, you could take it up again if you wish :)

Rainbow coloured clothing sounds cool :3 I’m thinking of cosplaying something similar to my avatar; girly w scary elements. Scary-wise, I’m thinking of drawing inspo from Ken Kaneki from Tokyo Ghoul (his ghoulish face) as it looks epic ; I haven’t seen the anime/manga yet but I’m just drawn to his appearance xD I would love to experiment w easy to wash off make-up.

I really love drawing as a main hobby :) Sometimes, I also do roleplaying or reading, and thinking of taking up cosplay. idk I don’t really want to think of how much time I spend on enjoying doing something so it’s considered a hobby to me & overthink, I’ll just do it whenever I feel like it xDD

I’ve been kind of just drifting over on multiple sites & trying to relax. And thinking of moving in w Juliette when I feel ready to (I don’t want to put a lot of pressure on myself w goals atm - and that is a big goal I just want to slowly integrate myself into). And I went back on an antidepressant medication w low dose that is now helping me a little. I do miss being here though & am keeping logged in here along w other sites on my phone.

I really like your art! ^^

I really like all the items <3

Also...I just want to say this here: this has been a really confusing and tumultuous and devastating journey for me throughout the past...four? nearly five years, although of course, there were little/big pieces of happiness/clarity along the way. And I really appreciate you guys & everyone’s (incl. outside Voltra) help along the way so so much truly. I appreciate that so many people believe in me to pull through/will pull through & believe in me in general. Regardless of how little or big communication. Regardless if we still speak or not. I still appreciate the kindness so much. (Ok I’m getting emotional now ;-;)

Goblinsandtea - I’m thinking of working on your retracing thought/movement tip. I’ll chat abt it w my therapist! watching/reading/listening stuff from my past is helping a little w nice nostalgia~

Total - I don’t journal regularly, but I have spaces where I can talk abt just anything random whenever just on my own. But it’s not always introspective. I can definitely see the appeal in journaling regularly though; I’ll consider it!

Also abt your walk suggestion: I nowadays usually walk just outside my house, & previously used to walk in the park. I’m thinking of going back in park as that covers a bigger distance and has fresher air.

To add to this: I think my headache ties strongly to my amnesia, both initiated/exacerbated from stress. I went to a neurologist a few yrs ago in which I got a brain scan. It was concluded I had a chronic daily headache, as there was nothing physically wrong.

omg I love No.6, I love Nezumi/Shion a lot <33

Hm...About top anime/mangas... I used to be pretty big on it in the past...

Here is my jumbled list of what I remember enjoying: Kuroshitsuji, Death Note, No.6, Naruto, Howl’s Moving Castle, Puella Magi Madoka Magica, Kuroko no Basuke, Free! Iwatobi Swim Club, Higurashi no naku Koro ni, Fullmetal Alchemist, Shingeki no Kyojin, Romeo x Juliet, One Piece, Fruits Basket. A few I’ve completed, and many others I haven’t xD

Wildfire - the thought of getting metal & toxin tested has crossed my mind a few times, but I haven’t requested my doctors to do these specific tests yet. I’ve only had multiple basic blood tests done, in which the main issues were vitamin d & iron deficiencies...I think. I’ll look into it when I have another blood checkup in future!

I’m definitely not hydrated enough lol.

Thank you so much! <3

Thank you so much for the tips, Total & Goblinsandtea!! <3 I’ll keep them in mind.

Yeah, I’ve been experiencing temporary amnesia for years now actually...it has been a regressive on-off decline (exacerbated noticeably by excess stress) and was a horror story of not knowing what’s wrong w me. I’m trying to cope w it as much as I can, and that it’s just a part of me now. I also want to stop constantly feeling angry & hungry to achieve more, simply because I keep having on-off episodes of memory blanks.

I write down bullet point reminders too; it has helped me a lot :)

So I wasn’t sure if I should post this, but I was wondering if you guys have tips on recovering from temporary/permanent amnesia? My particular situation is too much stress and memory reliving/suppression. I don’t want to expand much in super detail on it here (I’ll talk it confidentially w my psychologist) but do you have general tips? I have pill medication as a highly likely option (to at least mitigate the emotion intensity). And writing/reading/listening to music/doing art, of course!!

Poets of the Fall is a beautiful band. All their songs are incredible; I’ll name two: The Sweet Escape, Carnival of Rust.