Jessamine's posts

Yeah, pills is a pretty sensitive topic, which is why I’m hesitant to say what exact ones I took here. I think I want to actually venture into pill taking again soon (not just say I may one day). I will discuss abt it w my doctors start of next month. I think I want to experiment w a much lower/smaller dose at first w all sorts of pills, as the main issue w them (other than not knowing if they work) were pills getting stuck in my throat/my stomach not breaking/digesting it properly (in which my nutrition plan should be worked on too to adapt to my body). I accepted I now live permanently w my intense emotions (have many mini breakdowns/am worried abt everything, & my grief/pain is a seared stitched part of me. What I want w pills is to be able to embrace it as a whole, instead of it crushing me.

please be patient with me in plot/chat/rp reply; i am still experiencing aftershock from my mental deterioration years later (which i'm going to work out w my therapist) yet i love writing rp-wise so much still. plotting: only on forums (this search thread or alongside rp posts in our rp thread(s) or PM or our own 1 plotting/planning [OOC] thread for all our rps), but never outside messaging apps/platforms. lastly, please know there will be times i don't respond at all as i need a break from thinking about it for however long.

Name: Jessamine / Malachi (Ayami Nakajo fc; appearance ref in Snow Flower incl her wearing glasses)
Personality: She is typically loyal to people she trusts, before she got betrayed by her fellow seraphs. She grows more and more suspicious over time, with her emotions rising calamitously due to her recollections blurring or growing clearer throughout random spikes of memory in her mind. She loves gorgeous aesthetics like roses, but not in huge excess.
Bio: She got cast out of Eretz after being bitten by a vampire when she was fighting the vampire rarity in Eretz; this was the first time there was a vampire as an enemy out of all the weird creatures she and the other Dominion fought. She is outraged they would cast her out, instead of taking measures to remove the taint of the bite. She was an elite seraph! When she gets shoved out of the sky all the way to the ground, she hits her head pretty hard & loses a lot of her memory/has constant tension headaches. She does not recall she got betrayed, not even her name. She wanders around a bit, sees grass growing relatively bare besides some random flowers progressively dying, and she likes the yellow jessamine flower. She now goes by that name. She experiences conflict of her identity, whereas before she fell, her seraph religion was a stronghold, and progressively shows symptoms of becoming a full on hybrid.
Fandom: My original character based in the Daughter of Smoke and Bone world by Laini Taylor