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Thank you :) This is a clearer link on my blog. I know that people probably think I'm pretty crazy on Voltra, with unstable moodswings, yet i was just trying to communicate and also repeating myself to oblivion. I think they are just hoping i'm okay, and just want me to be safe. I may do more art here soon, so i don't drown as badly in my brain.

This is the year of the dragon in the Chinese Zodiac. Hatori Sohma, the doctor in Fruits Basket, is soothing me with his presence ; understanding the imbalance of the outright bullying terror I experienced as Kisa and the struggle to hopeful optimism as Momiji.

Hey, Qiqi and toe. Thanks for responding. I have been suffering for two years and feeling unsafe in my own home, yet I am thinking and communicating with the fragments of my life in a clearer cut coordination of moving mountains in my traumatic brain injury.

Relational communication is when people express relatable things in their own life -- to then communicate to someone else. Examples include songs which people can listen to and that gives them the strength and hope to recover from trauma. There have been many many moments when the relational communication turned very violent and passive aggressive, which perpetuates my feeling of paranoia and danger and endlessly needing to feel like I have to protect myself, including a musician who I used to like from afar and a friend I talk to ; it's quite complicated with the friend. I wrote a general premise of : people can see and hear what other people are up to, when they are experiencing a lot of trauma, and they try to help guide them back to their feet.

I went to a mind body spirit festival, which I got a tarot reading. He sensed I had been through a lot, speaking on my drawn card of five of wands, and also a card like the star.

Thank you, Koah :) I am hanging out a bit more with my twin sister, which is making me a bit happier and hopeful again~ We went to a spirituality festival and watched a movie recently together. I also have a friend I used to hang out a lot with in person, yet I don't know how to be in touch with them any more. And a friend I am talking to on Skype again -- an online friend I chat and write with. My psychologist knows both these people, whom I am emailing and skyping as well as seeing in person. Yet all these relationships were/are very tumultuous for me, which I am trying my best to struggle through. University would be the first place I would go to, I think, as it's nearest. I hope life calms down for you. What job do you work in? :)

That's good, macsen :) Yeah, life is quite hard, with endless pain after another ; the strength to just breathe is a beautiful peaceful clarity.

Maneskin. :3 I first heard them through their song zitte e buoni. it's quite catchy.

What are your thoughts with relational communication, and your experiences with it? Good or negative can go here, as I’m posting it in serious talk. I understand everyone has their own opinions / expression, yet I know one can feel very distressed and overwhelmed when already drowning in a terrifying crowded space. Please just speak the best you can from where you are at right now.

This thread is for me and others to remember they are not alone. I am fighting the best I can to finish coordinating my trauma ( which was actually my whole life rushing towards me I felt I was going to die ), and have plans to see my psychologist soon.

I also, like any community I am in, have viewed Voltra as a place I can just relax and call home — so it makes sense to write this ; anxiety and terror for a long length of time can affect one’s brain to the point of severe fracture.

How has everyone been / what have you been up to? For me, life has been very topsy-turvy for the past two years. I am seeing my psychologist soon to talk about things as it is, as well as perhaps visiting my university or high school. Maybe meet up with some friends.

Kalafina. I like her song Lacrimosa. :)

Rei Ann, yes, I quite liked the live action Teen Titans :3 I liked Raven, as her dark personality is interesting ^^ The Trigon storyline is cool.

Hi Ruby, nice to see you too :)

So, I’m continuing to talk about my love for Meteor Garden. I’ll write more in this post as I watch. I think Shancai is cute and I like her character. The boy group is interesting, Daoming is very mean, and Huaze is very nice. He said to her that he wouldn’t hurt her, yet has a bad boy aura. Shancai is cooking in a kitchen, while Daoming is encouraging her while wearing a green coat.

I am listening to the Album Leaf.

Hello. I watched some of the Teen Titans live action tv show, which I liked :3 Raven is cool. I’ve never carved a pumpkin.

I’ve seen the From trailer, as it looked pretty scary from the picture promo - a man screaming as a boy smiles at him ghoulishly. I see there is a crow in the hide and shriek town of mist. The boy looks a little like Evan from AHS~ I may see it sometime, it seems to set the mood for the halloween season. The purple centaur / faun is very interesting, like a creature from Narnia.

That’s okay, Aisu :) Lagertha is a great strong character ^^ I like her standing up to Sigvard~

I’m now watching the show Meteor Garden, it’s awesome Daoming Si and Shancai are interesting to watch :3

I have 6 Candy :)