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Juliette - I can relate to our parents contributing to depression/anxiety too & staying in apartment does help~

I understand more now that it’s more of a language barrier thing that our dad especially doesn’t know much what goes on with our lives as well as frustration I don’t have job outside his & mum’s family business. And also past frustration on stuff like constant reliance on transportation.

However, it is getting very disheartening and repetitive with my convos with dad mainly being him asking ‘what did you do today?’ & then answers his question with ‘nothing’. While I know full well I’ve done so much stuff in my life & met a lot of personal goals including transportation & uni. As well as confronting my longstanding pain with roleplay. And things like that, people not believing in what I can do just reduces my faith in humanity & highlights more painfully how abandoned I felt during my roleplay breakdown & then thinking about that just encourages me to distrust people & have angry outbursts. And like, I don’t live to please people, thanks.

My mum understands more & is more compassionate, but she does want me to have a career of my own, any type.

She did also suggest me going back to school if I still felt lost, which I adamantly was against, as I died and lost all my friends in uni, and after uni I found a ray of hope / personal journey to fix my life + to be happy & shortly during, I did another course, in which I barely held on to my scrap of sanity & listened to a lot of heavy metal/rock music & died less high key but it was still horrifying further on the year.

I’m going to try harder in job applying, with my faith restoring hopefully and most likely when I can go for in person appointment with my therapist again ; to practice interviews & talk abt life in general.

Thanks for the tips, guys! <3 I’ll look into them~

Yeah, I might go back to the doctor but in person again. When people see my hands up close, they are shocked how terrible it is; trying to explain over phone can’t portray the severity. Maybe a high quality photo of my hands would help haha 😂

My hands look and feel like a scaly reptile ; I have to keep myself from screaming especially when soap touches it when washing hands mainly when cream hasn’t been recently applied :D So soap is def one of the key issues but I have to use when washing hands! XD And I’ve been using a shower timer limit so I lessen my hot water exposure 🚿

Using gloves at night to keep the skin cream moisture in is fine, as well as pulling it off one or more times when needing to go to toilet & wash hands. And then re-applying cream & putting gloves back on. But even with gloves on, the cream & tap water also go on my top clothes, and like, even when I wash it, I then have to apply cream again the next night. And then my clothes smell terrible again 😓

@cashew: I’ve never seen My Hero Academia, but I’m interested :) Are there specific scenarios you would like Fat Gum to be interacting with your OC?

@totalanimefan: Thankyou :) I don’t think I’ve ever seen the option to type trade title in though, even before I added/accepted to a trade. Do you think that if I manually typed a username in trade search instead of going to a person’s profile or from forum post to click trade request, that title box would appear?

Hi, I was wondering how you guys name trades, with the title box appearing?

@katsuki bakugo: Hi, can I please buy Chords for Singing for 1k volts? :)

Hey guys. :)

For a while now, I’ve been trying to soothe my dry cracked cut skin on my hands. I’ve been going to the pharmacy & GP for hand cream recs. My current ones, sorbolene vitamin e moisturiser lotion layered on with Dermeze ointment (similar to Vaseline) - that combo especially put on at night with disposable gloves on - make a significant difference in smoothing the skin over and reduces my pain in washing my hands with soap. I also try to limit my hot water exposure & use soapless body wash. I know I might have to continue this method for a while, maybe for a very long time. I’m fine with that as it soothes my skin from constant physical pain (in which the physicality also affects upon my constant mental worries and ability to think/act logically, which drawing helps quite a lot with making me feel joy <3), and is a small thing to remember. I was wondering if anyone can help me / can relate?

@juliette: I miss you too :) I’ll be back in apartment next month.

@chiffonorange: Hi Chiffon :) That’s good to hear :D I’m good thanks ^^ I had my first vaccine dose today, in which I’m trying to drink a lot of water as my arm hurts.

@totalanimefan: Hi Total :) Yeah I keep drifting in and out xDD Yeah I noticed this event is going on, as well as the previous one with Cafe Cerise. They both look(ed) fun! ; I guess I felt too tired to participate :P However, I still have energy to do art which is the main thing giving me joy these days; I would like to live in drawing land, instead of reality :D I most likely will join the art exchange~

@ruby: Hi Ruby, good to see you too :) Yeah it’s been a while xD How are you?

@kory: Hi Kory. :) Thanks! <3 Yeah me and Juliette are twins :3

@jolly: Stunning pieces! The digital sketching/colouring is really beautiful, calming and eye-catching ^^ I love the use of purple too (my fave colour xD) I've tried doing experimental digital (traditional sketching and then scanning it into Photoshop to then attempt to colour with mouse haha xDD). I now just stick to traditional, as I find it easier to control.

I've never joined that particular seasonal exchange, but it looks cool~ :) I'm thinking of joining the Voltra seasonal exchange later this year.

I would recommend dollar variety stores too; the stationery section generally has a good range of art supplies~ And also some of the bigger supermarkets have some art stuff too, like pencils and paper. I would rec the former more, though. At the dollar store, I've bought sketchbooks (A4 / A2 / A3), water based markers, coloured pencils, pens, lead graphite pencils, erasers there. I'm thinking of maybe buying white charcoal to help accentuate/capture light~ Each dollar store's stationery section may vary on how its stocked/displayed, but at the one I went to, their stationery aisle had the more general stationery stuff to one side and more artsy stuff on the other.

@valefor: Thank you so much! <3 I updated the trade with the volts/ohms :)

I’ve been on and off on reading Chain of Iron by Cassandra Clare & Rule of Wolves by Leigh Bardugo. Hopefully I’ll get back in the swing of reading again at some point…might have to go back to the start to fall back in love with these worlds haha. ^^; I need a break from YouTube & tv watching as it gives me headache from excessive use :P

Hi guys :) How’s everyone / what’s up?

I made this thread because it’s been a long time since I properly chatted to Voltra people, with a lot of time seeming to have flown by this year~ And idk I’m just lonely.

…I MISS BEING HERE MORE OFTEN.

As for me, I’ve been doing art, watching tv, and living part-time in my apartment with Juliette~

@valefor: Hi, can I please buy Styr for 4k volts + 100 ohms? :)