Mellonin's posts

Okay, I'll take a stab at this ... *trigger warning: anxiety*

It is like a pervasive pounding my brain, this sense of urgency. As though my body might snap in twain, so great is the need for action, to taught do my muscles pull.

Does that happen a lot? I mean, the bundles are pretty expensive, I almost want to say it's some sort of a bug that needs to be looked into?

Well, I haven't welcomed them! So welcome to Voltra!

I'm sorry :(

I totally get you on the rejection front, though. I was just rejected by the government to be my father's live-in caretaker ... and job I'm already doing for free. Apparently, he isn't far gone enough for them to give me money for his care, even though I do a lot for him already. We are going to re-apply, but I don't have much in the way of hope that their answer will be any different.

Like Ava said, though, I'm super proud of you for continuing to try! Have you considered something like job cops to get a cna/nurse license, before continuing on for your dental degree? It's totally free, and they even provide room, food, and a small paycheck every two weeks. It's not a lot of money, but considering that they pay for everything else you could possibly need, it's a nice little bit of pocket change. I actually went to one - they are all over the USA - and got my culinary degree.

Welcome to Voltra!

Welcome to Voltra!

Most of my old avatar sites either went down, or became too overcrowded and money hungry (I'm looking at you, Gaia!) So I know exactly how you feel :)

Welcome to Voltra! Yeah, I think most of us have been on Gaia at one time or another … at least until they turned all commercial and sucky. It looks like you're settling in nicely here, though!

Welcome to Voltra! I'm sure you'll find your niche here, and love is just as much as your previous community!

Thanks for the warm welcome, guys! I'm hoping to become more active soon, but my life is going downhill epically fast lately.

So, I've been a huge lurker on here for a while. I log in, I grab my daily log in prize, I might post once in a week. And that's it.

I've realized that I'm not really using the site to it's full potential. I haven't really made any friends, although I notice people posting that I recognize from other threads I've posted in.

So, hey. I'm not new ... but I might as well be.

Welcome to Voltra! I'm sure you'll love it here

@Miss Sandman: The storms here in Maine (USA) can get pretty epic, as well - especially when we get a Nor'easter. So I completely sympathize with you. My favorite part of those storms, though, is curling up under a pile of blankets with my cat and a good book / my laptop ... until we lose power, of course, then it's just the book!

@blinkini: First of all, I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my brother in my mid to late 20s, so I have some idea what you are going through.

And what I found is this; there is no "getting back" to where you were, nor is there any perfect way to put your life back together. You are going to be different, things are going to change.

AND THAT IS OKAY!

You don't have to be okay. You don't have to react to loss just like everybody else in your family, BECAUSE EVERYBODY GRIEVES DIFFERENTLY. Some can go through their day to day lives just fine, and then break down when they are alone. Some are the opposite; okay when they are alone, falling apart when they are face with other people. And there are so many other combinations, it would take me pages and pages to list even a handful of them.

The point is, welcome back while you are here, but don't push yourself beyond what you can handle at this moment. Take time when you need it, and never let anybody make you feel like you should be 'over it' or ready to get back to life - they aren't you, and only you know when you're ready to pick up another piece of your life, another hobby, another responsibility.

Sending you lots of love!

Honestly, they either sound like somebody you blocked, or a creeper who doesn't want to be identified and is going to ask you for nude pictures or something.

I had a good valentine's day; my boyfriend surprised me with flowers and chocolates a couple of days before, and that night we went out and had dinner/drinks at our favorite local pub before each going to our seperate homes. Kind of a perfect holiday, in my opinion!