@Totalanimefan:
It really is indeed. My brain doesn’t shut off often either and so I had less than 2 hours of sleep between 21st of December to 29th (each day). I unfortunately am allergic to many anxiety medications so I can’t take them for flying, as well as my current ADHD medicine says to not take with them or anti-depressants.
(I also feel a high enough dose of CBD would help as well since I have spine issues, but, CBD is illegal in Iceland and so I didn’t bring any to take orally, had a CBD lotion for my lower back and spine, but, was told by my friend whose from Iceland to not risk it again because it could lead to either jail time or refusal into their location in the future for many years which sucks).
He was very nice. I wanted to give him a big hug and just cry. When we were walking towards my terminal, I said, “I’ll be fine. I can speed walk the rest of the way as I know my way around.” And he let me go. As I walked through a section which has food, I heard a voice I noticed, it was a lady who helped me when I was in a wheelchair (entirely different story and it made me see I could benefit from one due to my heart among many other things) before on my first ride back to USA.
We said hi and how it was nice to see each other. She’s been on my mind a lot more lately and I am hoping she’s okay. She was dealing with a lot the first time I met her. Second time she was doing better, but, still tired.
As much as I’d love to, I can’t afford it. I don’t work and my husband is the sole source of income for our family. But, what I do for hobbies brings in money sometimes, but, not always. On top of that my 5 year residence permit is still applied so I’d need to ask for permission first before I leave Netherlands and even Europe because they want to see I’m serious about having citizenship.
Once I’ve learned enough Nederlands (Dutch) and pass my exams (listening, speaking, and writing), I can get approved to stay for longer, then it’s all about getting my passport for Nederland (The Netherlands) and then hopefully have enough saved up to go back. Meanwhile, I have some people (some close friends) can afford coming here same with my brother and his wife. My parents have made it a bit harder to talk into.
Time will tell. :3