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@DevilkinBoi: Goodness, I hope you don't any issues with digesting sugars etc. LOL


@GodsandPunks: You got this darlin. I am not a fan of standardized testing either. I will take the GRE soon. I find out by Friday if I for sure am being allowed to pursue my dual Masters/PhD. I am nervous as all get out. Like my anxiety is running hella high but for so many different reasons and some are positive, ya know? It just seems things are finally progressing for me, and yet topsy turvy and outta control as well.

Which leads me to today's thought for the day. Recently my life coaching business has taken off, slowly but surely, and I have spent a lot of time listening to clients, and the issue of control comes up often. We all strive to control our lives, but the truth is, life happens, and it happens on its own terms. We can control how we act, and react, but not much else. We live with this illusion of being in control when in reality, there really isn't a man behind the curtain pulling strings. Being in control quite often requires us to be vulnerable and to submit. Then and only then are we able to see the illusion for what it truly is.

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And lastly, all too often, we live life and we begin to get tired or anxious. We begin to make small compromises which is wonderful at its core. Until those compromises turn into settling. We see someone, not for who they are, but for who they could be, for who they dream to be, but not always for whom they are willing to put forth the effort to become. We end up in a lopsided relationship. We give and give and we support and build the other person up and help them to color their dreams in bright yellows and oranges and sky blue too. We animate their world and bring to life their 2d pixelated black and white images with varying shades of gray. All the while, they aren't doing the word. And we realize we have learned to love and accept a life with a half lover.



This poem hits home every single time I read it. Because we all know that half a drink will not quench our thirst, so why do we allow half lovers and half friends the opportunity to stick around and quench the thirst in our heart and soul?

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@DevilkinBoi: So no jalapenos stuffed with cream cheese and deep fried? lol

@Xanthan: Sorry, dog was barking up a storm at our front door again.

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@GodsandPunks: No you are 100% ok. Get it out. Share your story and perspective because chances are someone else out there needs to hear it and can relate. The place I make for anyone in my life is their own place for sure. Expectations lead to disappointments, and the worst thing you can ever do to yourself and another is love them and keep them around because of what they could be, should be, might be, etc. Meet people where they are at in life, don't hold them to your standards. I only ask that you be you and do your thing. That is what I like about all my friends, mobile and IRL. They are 100% themselves and they are beautiful for it.

Thank you for the Kudos. I have been super emotional since getting the news. I have had great support though from my bf and my son and all my friends. I just got my canvases back that were stretched and mounted for me. I am so stoked :)

Tonight's topic: have you listened twice as much as you've spoken today? After all, isn't that why we have 2 ears but only 1 mouth?

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@GodsandPunks: Yes! All too often "we" the collective, will get with someone we know may not be right for us, but they have so much potential. They spin a good yarn. They have dreams and so on. And all of those things are great things to have, don't get me wrong. The issue here is, not loving and liking, and accepting someone for who they are and where they are at. What if they don't get their big break and are an unemployed actor living from gig to gig with prospects slowly fluttering away? Are they still good enough, and everything you still wanted in someone when you thought they were the next idk Robin Williams, or Jodie Foster? Ya know? I see potential in everyone, but it is latent potential. Not many really care to do much about it. More people, of those I do know and talk to, haven't done anything but sit around and maybe look for jobs during this pandemic. Me, I am taking free courses, paid courses, school stuff, I am wanting to better myself and the more that I can get free or discounted, the more i do, because I am poor. I don't mind my struggle, but I am definitely going places. Hopefully I found someone strong enough to love me as is, where I am, and also strong enough to endure the ride. LOL
And yes, compromise is totally fine. Just make sure the relationship dynamic doesn't become too one sided for long periods of time. That is when it begins to get toxic and you become used etc. I have friends that may not have much money, but they have a large yard, so hey, how about I'll get x y and z for dinner, let's do it at your place so the kids can play in the yard etc. and you come up with somehting that works for the best of the group as a whole unit, not the individual. You got this darlin. I know ya do. If you would like help on learning how to reach out, be vulnerable without being a door mat, and living your best life, you got my name and number.....hit me up LOL

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@GodsandPunks: thank you for the compliment. I am learning how to accept praise and compliments instead of shrugging and blowing them off. It is still weird though, cause I am just me. LOL But definitely hit me up anytime. I love our chats. You're story rings so familiar with others I have spoken with. I, too, love all of humanity. Every single person has value and is special and worthy of love, respect, and equality.

It can be really hard helping others just to turn around and feel alone or isolated. To feel as if by sharing your own thoughts or story others would shy away, rebel, or not even pay attention. I am so sorry that you feel as if you cannot share with others. I offer you my discord and voltra messaging if that helps :) From my experience, I had to learn to stand my ground with people. I needed healthy boundaries. If you need me there for you, which is fine, but you cannot be there for me in return, that is a one sided friendship and I'd rather say goodbye and hurt really bad in the moment and let it dissipate over time, than to start to have hope only for it to be ripped away and have the pain wash all over me in an unexpected time of need. Take the bandaid off all at once, not slowly. I have also learned that there is not an S on my shirt and I cannot save everyone, ie I am not superman. The closest I have come to it is from my son, he says I have a B on my shirt.....not for that lol .....but for Best Dad Ever :)

I think you have something inside of you that you haven't yet seen yourself. And once you recognize that. Once you validate your own self and slow down with the saving people ;) you will see significant change in all areas of your life. I will make a post sometimes soon on the power of NO and what it means to those in helping professions and those who just help too much.

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@DevilkinBoi:
@GodsandPunks:

How is everyone? Sorry I been away from this forum. Been working on work and school and the team event. What's new what's shakin what's up?

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@DevilkinBoi: That is horrible. Any estimated time for the power to get back on for them?