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@Wildfire: I don't think their supposed to be quick. XD
at least not from what i learned doing art for a few years.
you just have to get something out of it. And i am by far no means..quick at all...
*takes months to finish a single piece*

It's another book from the collection i am slowly getting.
I'm planning to get the entire morpho set.
my dad bought me the hands and feet one so next month I'll buy the simplified shapes one
since it's something i struggle with.
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@Wildfire: i tend to go over the top with studies so i try to make them into finished paintings since it can teach you a lot and im very lost at art lately lol

tho made me realize i really need to work on my drawing skills.
i may end up buying my second art book after all. maybe as a birthday gift lol
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@Wildfire: yeah and am just not an outdoor person for that reason.
and often had gotten made fun of i was not "athletic" due to i have some breathing issues.

haha yeah. I might try a new approach for it. Like start with shapes instead of lineart.
but then i'm going to do a different study until i can return to that one.
but it made me realize i really need to do more studies even if it's just sketching lol so i at least got something out of it.
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@Wildfire: it was mostly the fact it was like a camp-like thing i went to
and...i hated every second of it. didn't have fun at all and just wanted to go home lol.

im okay, deciding if i should scrap or continue a study im working on
which came out terrible and making me have identity crisis with my art
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@Wildfire: Ooo nice.
I've only been kayaking once when i was a kid
but i hated everything about it lol
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@Wildfire: it was okay.
I didn't really do anything but paint a tiny bit and then quit lol.
mostly since i forgot how i paint skin...again since i don't do it often.

But it's been a decent day.
how about you?
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@Wildfire: that is good to hear.
im doing about the same.
Posted in Session Change Posted 4 years ago
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im very happy with the season time change.
i can actually get up at least an hour earlier.
hoping i can slowly adjust my terrible schedule so i am up before noon at the very least.
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@icedchai: i wish warm weather would go away for a while lol.
We're supposed to have a warm November.
which means i'll feel awful in december lol.

I hope it at least will snow.
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@icedchai: Lol i feel that. it does not feel like tuesday for me at all.
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@icedchai: Thank you, I appreciate it.
I don't really do as much art as i did a few months back.
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@Wildfire: im okay, just working on painting slowly due to laggy laptop lol.
how are you?

@icedchai: im alright, just trying to be active on here.
how are you?
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hello everyone, good afternoon
Posted in Always doing something wrong Posted 4 years ago
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@Kory: Yeah, it's way too soon to just...be functioning normally i totally agree. Unfortunately my dad and sister are the type who canot sit still
and think they should be doing something. Like the cleaning for example. We haven't done much of it for a few months and
everyday it's listing what we should be doing, no matter how many times I've said that we'll get to it when we can.

It feels like talking to a wall sometimes. I say things, but no one truly takes me seriously. I'm 26 and no one just..listens to me or hears me. But everyone can listen to my sister. So I guess when i voice things it's taken less seriously.

I can't really afford any therapist. And live with a parent who doesn't fully grasp mental illnesses. Like he knows they exist, just doesn't truly understand therapy works and just relies on the bible and it's teachings. Which makes it even harder to even speak up about issues. Even when some people in his congregation have these issues. Feels like he believes them over me.
I would love to have a therapist or even a counselor but since I also live in poverty, it's not super accessible to me or even doing it over zoom because I have a barely functioning laptop.

But hopefully if I voice my concerns it'll help. But i think the hardest issue with adhd, is even getting people to take me seriously at all. In my family, mostly my relatives if you don't have a doctor's note or diagnosis, i don't have certain illnesses. My sister so far is the only one who listens to me, but when i have told her to not do certain things, like leave me to do dinner all by myself, she still has done it. And it's hard to explain things as nicely as possible when i'm just..not being taken seriously and I am still even learning what affects my ADHD too.

I thought getting a support animal might help me. But our land lady is...not a nice person. so I don't think that can happen until we move out.