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Posted in Moody's Botanic Garden
Posted 4 years ago
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@Rei Ann: yeah. it was very hard. as before, when my mom had her stroke 12 years ago she was in the ICU and was in the same condition pretty much. Kind of comatose, unable to respond or move much.
so i pretty much broke down in the room and on the way to the elevator and outside too.
so my dad just comforted me.
and i am not a huge person who...cries often. so when i do you know it's quite bad.
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@Rei Ann: yeah. it was very hard. as before, when my mom had her stroke 12 years ago she was in the ICU and was in the same condition pretty much. Kind of comatose, unable to respond or move much.
so i pretty much broke down in the room and on the way to the elevator and outside too.
so my dad just comforted me.
and i am not a huge person who...cries often. so when i do you know it's quite bad.
Posted in Moody's Botanic Garden
Posted 4 years ago
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@Rei Ann: me too. tho she was not really conscious when i was in there with her.
they have her meds up so it's making her rest in order to not have her in so much pain.
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@Rei Ann: me too. tho she was not really conscious when i was in there with her.
they have her meds up so it's making her rest in order to not have her in so much pain.
Posted in Moody's Botanic Garden
Posted 4 years ago
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@star2000shadow: for me, it's my ADHD.
i lost things constantly and will not remember where they are. if it's underneath something, it pretty much does not exist in my mind.
@Rei Ann: yeah. they had another break out there again when we went.
but they said her test from last week came out negative.
but since we were unsure how much time she truly has left we just had to gear up and visit with her but it was extremely hard
visiting as i was unsure just how bad of condition she was in until we got there and i saw her.
so today was an especially hard day.
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@star2000shadow: for me, it's my ADHD.
i lost things constantly and will not remember where they are. if it's underneath something, it pretty much does not exist in my mind.
@Rei Ann: yeah. they had another break out there again when we went.
but they said her test from last week came out negative.
but since we were unsure how much time she truly has left we just had to gear up and visit with her but it was extremely hard
visiting as i was unsure just how bad of condition she was in until we got there and i saw her.
so today was an especially hard day.
Posted in And then emptied my wallet
Posted 4 years ago
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Lots of cute Pusheen stuff!
My grandma loves Pusheen.
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Lots of cute Pusheen stuff!
My grandma loves Pusheen.
Posted in Moody's Botanic Garden
Posted 4 years ago
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@star2000shadow: i lose things every day so i understand that feeling lol
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@star2000shadow: i lose things every day so i understand that feeling lol
Posted in Mother's health took a turn for the worst|Update: 9/14/21
Posted 4 years ago
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@Kory: its definitely not an easy thing to hear. all day yesterday after the news dropped i just had anxiety all day long.
and still kind of do.
this is probably the second time grieving due to when she first had her stroke it was so hard.
and my relatives thought telling me how long to grieve they got a say in, and criticizing how we lived when we were just surviving was just cruel.
so im hoping none of my other relatives will bother us this time so we have time to actually...heal from this.
as they did a lot of emotional damage to us. so it's so hard for me to even feel any sort of grieve of sadness since they kept telling me i had to be the "strong" one.
But my family decided we do not want a get together. mostly because the idea of them gettining drunk[which they always do] even tho someone in my fam told my dad to divorce my mother when this happened and everyone just...pretended my mom didn't exist...just doesn't sit right with me.
@Totalanimefan: yeah it's very difficult thing to swallow. even now. even tho we knew it was going to happen eventually because she is with hospice. it's still very difficult.
she had been losing so much weight since she has been with hospice, and also sufffers from dementia and anxiety and depression.
@Stinky: thank you I appreciate it
i will probably end up diving deep into art to help me cope with this news.
@wildfire: thank you i appreciate it.
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@Kory: its definitely not an easy thing to hear. all day yesterday after the news dropped i just had anxiety all day long.
and still kind of do.
this is probably the second time grieving due to when she first had her stroke it was so hard.
and my relatives thought telling me how long to grieve they got a say in, and criticizing how we lived when we were just surviving was just cruel.
so im hoping none of my other relatives will bother us this time so we have time to actually...heal from this.
as they did a lot of emotional damage to us. so it's so hard for me to even feel any sort of grieve of sadness since they kept telling me i had to be the "strong" one.
But my family decided we do not want a get together. mostly because the idea of them gettining drunk[which they always do] even tho someone in my fam told my dad to divorce my mother when this happened and everyone just...pretended my mom didn't exist...just doesn't sit right with me.
@Totalanimefan: yeah it's very difficult thing to swallow. even now. even tho we knew it was going to happen eventually because she is with hospice. it's still very difficult.
she had been losing so much weight since she has been with hospice, and also sufffers from dementia and anxiety and depression.
@Stinky: thank you I appreciate it
i will probably end up diving deep into art to help me cope with this news.
@wildfire: thank you i appreciate it.
Posted in Moody's Botanic Garden
Posted 4 years ago
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@star2000shadow: i wish i was a bit better but, im getting there.
just takes a lot of focus XD
but i really love creating something from scratch.
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@star2000shadow: i wish i was a bit better but, im getting there.
just takes a lot of focus XD
but i really love creating something from scratch.
Posted in Moody's Botanic Garden
Posted 4 years ago
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@Rei Ann: yeah. at one point my mom tested positive for covid.
but she felt fine and showed no symptoms.
@star2000shadow: its fine. i didnt really think writing was for me
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@Rei Ann: yeah. at one point my mom tested positive for covid.
but she felt fine and showed no symptoms.
@star2000shadow: its fine. i didnt really think writing was for me
Posted in Moody's Botanic Garden
Posted 4 years ago
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@Rei Ann: my mom is in a nursing home but they tend to be too lax.
as they often had outbreaks of covid through employees
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@Rei Ann: my mom is in a nursing home but they tend to be too lax.
as they often had outbreaks of covid through employees
Posted in Moody's Botanic Garden
Posted 4 years ago
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@Rei Ann: that sucks im so sorry for your loss.
yeah. but with covid we havent been able to visit with her.
tomorrow we will be visiting her.
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@Rei Ann: that sucks im so sorry for your loss.
yeah. but with covid we havent been able to visit with her.
tomorrow we will be visiting her.
Posted in Mother's health took a turn for the worst|Update: 9/14/21
Posted 4 years ago
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So we had the bomb dropped on us this afternoon that my mother's health has declined since we last got to see her via zoom call 2-3 weeks ago. we hadnt been able to zoom with her as they somehow forgot the password to their own device.
She's been with hospice since October of 2019. But she had a stroke when i was 14. and since then had been in a nursing home.
some of our family members will be going to visit her tomorrow and say our goodbyes pretty much.
just really hurts. i was expecting it but once it happens it just...really sucks.
Update 9/14/21: this really pains me to say this even online.
Last Thursday we went to see her, and it was devastating. She has lost so much weight over the past 2 years that she looked so small and it was so hard seeing her that way.
Yesterday[9/13/21], my dad got a phone call at 4:30am. She only had a few hours left.
So he went to see her and by roughly 2pm...she had passed.
My aunt and my grandma came over and comforted us as well as handled bringing over all of her things.
It's still very much a hard thing to acknowledge that she is gone.
If I become less active on here, that is why.
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So we had the bomb dropped on us this afternoon that my mother's health has declined since we last got to see her via zoom call 2-3 weeks ago. we hadnt been able to zoom with her as they somehow forgot the password to their own device.
She's been with hospice since October of 2019. But she had a stroke when i was 14. and since then had been in a nursing home.
some of our family members will be going to visit her tomorrow and say our goodbyes pretty much.
just really hurts. i was expecting it but once it happens it just...really sucks.
Update 9/14/21: this really pains me to say this even online.
Last Thursday we went to see her, and it was devastating. She has lost so much weight over the past 2 years that she looked so small and it was so hard seeing her that way.
Yesterday[9/13/21], my dad got a phone call at 4:30am. She only had a few hours left.
So he went to see her and by roughly 2pm...she had passed.
My aunt and my grandma came over and comforted us as well as handled bringing over all of her things.
It's still very much a hard thing to acknowledge that she is gone.
If I become less active on here, that is why.
Posted in Moody's Botanic Garden
Posted 4 years ago
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@Rei Ann: yeah. was expecting it just not so soon.
my mother's health just majorly declined so not sure how much time she has left.
so some of us will be visiting with her tomorrow.
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@Rei Ann: yeah. was expecting it just not so soon.
my mother's health just majorly declined so not sure how much time she has left.
so some of us will be visiting with her tomorrow.
Posted in Moody's Botanic Garden
Posted 4 years ago
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@Rei Ann: unfortunately its not something that can be fixed
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@Rei Ann: unfortunately its not something that can be fixed
Posted in Moody's Botanic Garden
Posted 4 years ago
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@Rei Ann: yeah and got really bad news today so anxiety is going a little crazy.
im so sorry someone called in st work. hopefully work wasnt too stressful.
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@Rei Ann: yeah and got really bad news today so anxiety is going a little crazy.
im so sorry someone called in st work. hopefully work wasnt too stressful.