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I'm currently taking a class about pathologies. Its for massage therapy so its a lot more brief than it would be for like, medical school or whatever. But this week we're on a chapter that talks about mental disorders. Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder was the first that came up, and voila -- I have that.

ADHD is a very over-diagnosed disorder and a lot of people think its even just a myth, or an excuse, which was surprisingly also mentioned in the class. So I've learned to be very choosey about whom I talk to about it and to some people. I can't even mention it to my family, even though my mother was there was I was diagnosed, because she's crazy and forgets everything. To her, I've had every mental disorder, but I also have none at all :vanora_xd:

ANyways, it normally doesn't bug me at all. I learn to live with it, I'm a grown arse adult. BUT ADHD is no less ADHD, and it especially comes forth when I am in a job or academic scenario. I fumble so much and people get angry with me over things that I swear upon anything, I can't help it. I am constantly trying so hard to keep up with tasks and minor things. But I can't explain it to them. So they'll think I'm just a moron. I'll forget things I need, I fail to absorb a lot of information, and if there's too much going on inside or outside of my head, I absorb absolutely nothing. I have to do a lot of extra studying and some days I just cant. at all. Caffeine is my only saving grace lol

One of the things I piss myself off with the MOST is when I accidentally skip a page or two in a TEST. Like I know I look tests over several times, during and after filling them out. I'm sure pages can stick together but sometimes I just see the pages, imagine they're finished, and can't notice they aren't cause my brain clocks out for half a second. Or recently I had a take-home test that I decided to go with advice someone gave me (unrelated) to answer what I know first, then go back. BIG MISTAKE. Once the last page is spotted, this mofo mentally completes the test, glances over derpily and tries to turn it in. My instructor was pretty mean about it, and I had only 5 minutes to fill out a page and a half T____T
I didn't do well on that one.

Anyway, this pathology chapter about it is a pretty good briefing of what ADHD is, but it also very much emphasizes the stereotypical associations with ADD/ADHD that dont.. always.. exist. And a lot of times it talks about things make it sound like a person with ADHD is entirely, uncontrollably impulsive with no sense of logic in a situation. Like, "climbing and running around in a situation where it is only appropriate to be sitting"
Okay man, kids will do this, and I admittedly used to. But when my classmates and instructor are reading these things, they start attributing it as things that ALL ADHD PEOPLE ARE LIKE THIS, SO ITS HARD TO MASSAGE THEM

WOT

"They can't lay on a table for a full 60 minutes so they might need shorter sessions"

wot

The textbook suggests some people may be "uncomfortable" sitting still for so long, and it explains it very well, but my class reiterates it so... wrongly. And I really don't know why I care, since it really doesn't apply to me. But it annoys me so much. The issue I am not allowed to speak about is because people can't seem to comprehend it, and they tell me I'm wrong because I'm not some exaggeratedly impulsive nutcase. A lot of those cases are with small children, but now that I'm old, I no longer am allowed to have ADHD. Even when the correct information is right in front of their faces.


Idk, maybe I should stop thinking about it xd

@erebus:
exactly! :vanora_xd:
Plus, 30" is bigger than the size of a 3DS screen, so animal crossing is gonna make my tv feel good about itself lol

@bonnie:
OH
I have an olive garden gift card. Thanks for reminding me :vanora_xd:
I usually get their lasagna fritta, they're pretty tasty.

@erebus:
Lmao right?? My tv is pretty small (30" I think) and I try very hard not to notice.
Like if anyone says anything, shhhhh dont hurt its feelings, its a 60" on the inside!

@bonnie:
Dude, always enchiladas :vanora_xd: That seems to be the most common thing I eat when I go out with someone.

@erebus:
Yeah for sure! I could barely stand playing modern MMO's on pc with my last monitor, it was something smaller than 20" lol
im too spoiled since becoming adult

@bonnie:
I can understand that. I value my alone time a lot, so eating alone can be fun for me haha I used to take myself on dates all the time when I was single, and I actually preferred it over dates with others for a while. I've done it once since being with my bf, but then I invited him to join me anyways lmao Its fun to share the flavors with others.

@erebus:
Oh man, runescape. I keep thinking I want to play it again but I dont know why lmao
if mobile controls are all on screen dpad things though, I cant bother

@bonnie:
Haha why not eat by yourself? Are you wanting to go out somewhere?
I just ate some instant pho so I'm not hungry, but I still wanna snack forever D;

Yeah I'm trying to see if I can change the subject to something else but my instructor must be busy. not replying to my text xD
might be stuck doing a report on the more common case of the condition I chose (hemangioma) but its boring.

@erebus:
Haha! and if they make mobile games compatible with the keyboard controls, I'll mini-WASD all day long
I refuse to play mobile games that make me use a joystick or dpad on the screen to move around. Too much smudge happening here, i dont like it :vanora_xd:

@totalanimefan:
Still, there's progress to be proud of! And at least you're trying even if its terrifying to go through. <3

Also screaming inside, I set my research report subject to a condition that is too rare to find reliable sources on!! D;
chose it cause my best friend has it but I need university websites as sources. poops

@erebus:
Yes, I miss my slide out keyboard too! But I also like how much I can do on my smart phones now, compared to back then. So I wont just downgrade to a buttony phone haha my galaxy phones last longer anyway.
Now they have phones that can fold. Maybe they can make them into mini phone-size laptops with buttons on one half and I'll be happy with that >>

@bonnie:
I think I only liked bugles because I could play with them lmao
I dont like them anymore. But I'm also spoiled with more flavorful chips now days

@bonnie:
that is true lmao
My favorite memory of an elderly customer might be a time I was cashiering for this lady who was buying bugles

and I muttered something about I couldn't eat them as a child until I first put them on my finger tips and play around a bit like they're claws. This old lady was absolutely mind blown, and she got so excited like omg I'm gonna go do that to my husband, that's such a hilarious idea!!
her joy was the best thing. Made everyone around her giggle by how cute she was about it xD

@bonnie:
Right? I mean lets be honest, old people always have something to say about retail clerk names xD
All of my coworkers have interesting cases.

@erebus:
I'm an old fart, see. Ever since they did away with buttons on phones for the letters, I hate typing on mobile lmao

@bonnie:
Haha nice! I used to get a lot of weird comments at work (retail) about how I'm too young for the name. Silly old people. I stopped wearing my name tag xD

@erebus:
Yeah I've finally started on my homework today and I'm whining so much inside
I also refuse to code on mobile, not worth it xD
I barely like to reply to messages using mobile either

@erebus:
Im late but, YOU CAN DO IT
but also thats exactly why my threads already exist but dont look fancy lmao

@bonnie:
oh hey, you have my name xd
what kind of assignment is it?

I feel like mine shouldn't take too long either, I just need to set a day aside for the research report I'm doing. But typing 4 pages for it really is easy to me, there's enough information to flesh out more than that without any strain. Editing and perfectionism is what takes me longer lmao

@totalanimefan:
I see, I can only imagine! Well I wish the best of luck to you in getting through the fears.
Its a bit crazy, my driving phobia was so intense (still is sometimes) but I never thought I could ever overcome it, even a little bit. But I've achieved my impossible so it makes me feel like anyone can do it too--but I have to be careful with that perspective cause it can be taken insensitive too xD