Shadami's posts

I need 42 more posts xD
I am delighted by this fact

@Wildfire:
can i just answer with a *hugs* thanks.
I'm trying.
I'm emotionally drained today... this month. Yeah, this month has been kind of awful.
But today i feel like just tapping out. I need a break. and I can't get one as a mom with no help T.T I just keep telling myself I have to hold out until the little one is in school in 2 years. and hopefully things will let me breath and get slightly easier.

@Wildfire: *stares at screen thinking*
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I'm playing minecraft? and voltra people are kind to me.

:O i hope its not covid. I shall cross my fingers for you!

@Vozzy: we did pretty awesome :D thanks

@Wildfire: yes. this. i'm just bad at saying that xD
I hope i catch my break one day and all my hard work pays off. But right now. just exhausted.

Oh no! :O
feel better
and i'm sorry they woke you up :[

@Wildfire: I just want this all over with . But yes. i really should. I just usually don't have the energy for it when the things happen. its so exhausting to deal with him. and I'm sorry. No more talks about it right now cause don't need to bring up memories :O

@Koah: I have giant social anxiety. xD and people that talk down to me are the worst. for me to handle i mean. I'm sure they're lovely people in other ways.
My grandmother was a librarian. and it seems like such a dream job if it paid better. <3 books are wonderful

Oh! Or you have to play on windows and not java >.> cause windows you can just play on whatever server your friend is on.
Which.
I don't know why you can't do that with java. Like it used to be when it was just minecraft *grumble noises*

@Alchemists Fire: you have to do this file server launchy box thingy on one of your computers. And as long as its open, the server will be up. than you can save it and close it down whenever.
But yeah. Its a one of you hosts the server thing. or use hamachi for a lan connection.

I technically have a server that you'd both be welcome to use. Its me and only a couple other people right now. But it is no mods. I poke it when i've got the energy to. Building stardew houses in it for no reason.

nom nom nom!

Pumpkins would be fun yeah xD

I should work on some art.... B ut i'm so angry at the ex!!

I yelled at him via text. Pointing out that he lied to me, and isn't being a father. cause he "can't keep them because his mother can't watch them for him"
Excuse me?
Your mother? Well if your MOTHER is the one getting time with them. YOU don't need visitation hours you nitwit. I see HER during the week and she can have wonderful time with them cause she actually wants her grandkids in her life. And I like her.
*grumbly anger* He hasn't replied since I pointed out that he's not being a father. WHich is all I said cause I'm keeping things as civil as possible because they still love him. He's their father.
But I think they're noticing that I'm doing more and more for them. ANd he's doing less and less.
ONly one of the 3 asked him to come to the tae kwon do graduation. The other two didn't ask at all.