Gatorlec's posts

Hey. I'm mentally ill and I'm a cancer survivor but was left with one lung. I have lupus and some days are worse than others. I also broke my ankle as a kid so badly that I have painful arthritis and problems with being on it too much. Despite this, I still work a physical job as a janitor and I'm left in severe pain and exhaustion.

My mental illnesses leave make me a very angry person but I've been working hard to get my anger under control. I'm tired of never feeling anything other than anger and I'm tired of hurting people. It's not been easy but I feel like I'm doing okay. Sometimes I slip up though. : /

@Jessibuns: Oh cool. That was really nice of them. : )

@Jessibuns: Sweet you got your name changed

Look what I bought for me the kids.

@Sassifrass: Well, I'm a first class idiot, so I didn't realize that was you until you explicitly told me. I wouldn't have realized it either. Lmao

@Sassifrass: What? What's your username? Was it the one about your mother's leg? That's the only one I can think of. I didn't know that was you. Lol. I figured you didn't respond because you just needed to blow off some steam and didn't want to get into conversations about it. So don't feel bad. Lol

@Sassifrass: It's Shamus, I don't know if you recognized my name. But I hope you've been doing well.

Welcome back.

My supervisor got promoted and I'm going to miss him being my supervisor. He's chill and understanding.
For example: I have lupus and I sometimes I feel just very sick. He knows this. Tonight I had a dizzy spell and was extremely nauseous. My supervisor let me sit down and rest until it passed.
Me: Hey, I don't feel good. I feel like I'm going to throw up.
Him: Yeah, I can tell. You don't look good at all. I mean, you never look good. Haha, kidding man. Yeah, go sit down and chill for a bit, you don't have to find me and get permission. I know that you have medical conditions.
I'm just gonna miss that kind of stuff. I just hope that his replacement will be as chill and cool too. He's still going to be here, he's just going to be my manager's assistant. He said that he won't let someone come in and be mean to us. So he said that we need to tell him if his replacement is because he'll settle it.


EDIT: Also, Happy birthday to my now 3 year old son, Noel. Feels like just yesterday I was telling you guys on Cae about his birth.

@lullaby: I'm an essential worker, so I was scared about possibly having exposed all my coworkers, plus my kids and ex wife.

But it's negative. Phew.

@poetictorment: It's negative!!!

@PoeticTorment: It wasn't painful, just extremely unpleasant. Jenni cried. However when I asked her if she was crying because they hurt her, she went, "I'm NOT crying, Shamus!!!" But she was indeed crying. I think she was just so caught up in the unpleasantness.

@PoeticTorment: pinging
@lullaby: both of you

I went to the hospital and sat in the testing tent. I don't know how good the cvs tests are because the hospital told me that it'll take 24 hours for a result. As for the money, my insurance picked it up.

It was... interesting. They shove a big long qtip type swab up your nose all the way. It was unpleasant and Jenni was flailing her arms as the guy doing the test is trying to tell her to relax.

@poetictorment: I've been waiting for two days. If they don't have tests, they should refer me somewhere else, otherwise, you'd think they'd take it seriously and test me asap but alas, I have yet to find a doctor who isn't an arrogant prick and takes my concerns seriously.

I have to be tested for covid-19. Jenni's mom tested positive and they just saw each other yesterday. >: C They've been seeing each other almost every day.