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Posted in hiatus maybe?? Posted 4 years ago
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@Nephila: tbh...i don't really know.
I haven't left the house in a year regardless
because i rather not risk getting sick.

@Kairu: it's much harder than that for me because i also have undiagnosed ADHD and depression.
and with that, i get time paralysis meaning losing track of time.
sometimes literally just thinking about 1 task i need to do.
it takes me literally all day to just..do ONE thing.

Social anxiety i've dealt with all my life so it's not honestly bad for me now.
It's most depression and imposter syndrome with ADHD as well lol.
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@Nephila: not really no.
i mostly just browse artists i like on twitter or ig.

your link also just redirects me back here
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@Nephila: art mostly is my coping mechanism for all my problems.

which does good but i end up frustrated if i dont do art lol.
but mostly more complicated with family stuff.
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@Nephila: I can't afford to go to a psychiatrist or any kind of therapist or anything.
my family is very poor at the moment.
so i kinda just have to deal with it on my own.

and especially with covid i don't feel safe to look into going to one or talking to one.
it's just very complex subject in my house.

I'm still doing art on here.
i just won't be talking and trying to get orders done.
I'll have to put you on the waist list since i have 2-3 other people that want to order art.
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@Glume: thank you. im sure i'll come back soon and feel better.
Posted in Snowy Investigation (Evolving Item Hangout) Posted 4 years ago
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gonna post here for a little while longer before i go off to hiatus-land.
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I never really had much interest in forum games
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@Merynia: i never go to the arcade xD
that's just a forum i never step foot in.
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im just not really happy on here.
and i have no idea how to change it cause talking more and actively just seemed to have
made the imposter syndrome...much worse.

thanks for your kind words.
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@Shark:Maybe but im not good to talk with tbh lol.
discords i end up muting or leaving all together.

Art right now is keeping me content.
but my mom's condition is just...really affecting me i think, and im beyond tired
even tho i go to bed early i always feel fatigued lol
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@Shark: probably not tbh.
because often times if i talk about my mental illness
i kind of just get... Unsolicited advice...

and there isn't much i can do about it because of Covid, relious family members
and just money issues.

so then i try to never talk about it if i can help it
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@Totalanimefan: kinda just made me feel annoying.
im just...not meant to talk lol.
all i talk is stupid nonesense tbh and i haven't really enjoyed it.
some days i did but not a lot of days were good for me.

@Shark: I have undiagnosed depression, and i feel i have to pretend im happy not just online but IRL
because i don't want to get bombarded with "is everything okay"
or worry people.

I also suffer from undiagnosed ADHD and social anxiety.
and all i know is art but no one is really interested in listening to the same stuff
which is understandable.
but i just have...not much to share in my life which is centered around....sadness kinda lol
Posted in Snowy Investigation (Evolving Item Hangout) Posted 4 years ago
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@Anarchist Beauty: took it out regardless. lol
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after much contemplating for months,
i've decided to possibly quit or go on a long hiatus for a few months. i only come on voltra to mainly quest items and make art. and its just not enough to keep me here as i just find it very hard to make friends and talk to people comfortably where i dont feel anxious or stressed. especially since im not super cheerful all the time and just makes me regret saying anything

so kinda just feeling hopeless anytime i log on.

i will not be giving away items so please do not ask. i will however still be working on commissions that i have on here.