so hear me out: i use tumblr mainly for sims cc, but recently used it to see if anyone was selling a binder bc why not right? people use tumblr to sell their binders, might as well check
so i was searching, and i saw posts that were like U MUST BE DYSPHORIC 24/7 TO BE TRANS like whAT????
im sorry but i dont constantly think of the fact that im not flat??? sure its at the back of my mind a lot of the time but at the moment i kind of try and push that thought way back as a way to cope yknow???
anyway, so it made me doubt myself. now, i watched a video a few years back of a guy showing his transtion up to the point he was at, and he EVEN SAID THAT HE DOUBTED HIMSELF AT TIMES AND WONDERED IF HE WOULD REGRET IT. so i KNOW that its normal, but i STILL doubt myself and wonder if im even trans and if this is all a misunderstanding.
the thing is, when i think of my future i literally see myself as a fully transitioned man, and seeing as though im willing to go through BOTH SURGERIES and am willing to bind and start T, surely thats a sign that i am infact trans?? AND THE FACT THAT IVE BEEN GOING AS KAI AND USING HE/HIM PRONOUNS FOR 3 WHOLE YEARS
i think the thing thats making me worry the most is the fact that, at the moment, i dont feel a whole lot of major dysphoria about my 'female assets', mainly because i try my hardest not to think about them or even look at them as to not get immediately upset. i think once i start binding though itll be more obvious because ill want to keep the binder on like 25/8 and get extremely uncomfortable when i take it off
that and i literally have social anxiety and depression which is only made worse by the fact that i dont pass at all which basically causes me to constantly be depressed and in turn not really feel anything other than big sad
so yeah, that was my lil rant
TLDR; tumblr has made me doubt that i, a guy that wants to go through THE WHOLE TRANSITION AND SURGERY, am actually transgender. thanks tumblr.
so i was searching, and i saw posts that were like U MUST BE DYSPHORIC 24/7 TO BE TRANS like whAT????
im sorry but i dont constantly think of the fact that im not flat??? sure its at the back of my mind a lot of the time but at the moment i kind of try and push that thought way back as a way to cope yknow???
anyway, so it made me doubt myself. now, i watched a video a few years back of a guy showing his transtion up to the point he was at, and he EVEN SAID THAT HE DOUBTED HIMSELF AT TIMES AND WONDERED IF HE WOULD REGRET IT. so i KNOW that its normal, but i STILL doubt myself and wonder if im even trans and if this is all a misunderstanding.
the thing is, when i think of my future i literally see myself as a fully transitioned man, and seeing as though im willing to go through BOTH SURGERIES and am willing to bind and start T, surely thats a sign that i am infact trans?? AND THE FACT THAT IVE BEEN GOING AS KAI AND USING HE/HIM PRONOUNS FOR 3 WHOLE YEARS
i think the thing thats making me worry the most is the fact that, at the moment, i dont feel a whole lot of major dysphoria about my 'female assets', mainly because i try my hardest not to think about them or even look at them as to not get immediately upset. i think once i start binding though itll be more obvious because ill want to keep the binder on like 25/8 and get extremely uncomfortable when i take it off
that and i literally have social anxiety and depression which is only made worse by the fact that i dont pass at all which basically causes me to constantly be depressed and in turn not really feel anything other than big sad
so yeah, that was my lil rant
TLDR; tumblr has made me doubt that i, a guy that wants to go through THE WHOLE TRANSITION AND SURGERY, am actually transgender. thanks tumblr.
