I'm not normal...

i mean no one really knows me i understand...and that i don't post like i should.
but...
it hits hard when you see newbies on a list in the event.
let me back up? i was posting at one time (trying to) but my depression got the better of me and i skidded from here and everywhere.
I got help! outside that is from here. But now im trying to come back i feel so lost and behind i dont even know what to do.
yes i know of the event...which im trying to participate in

i don't know...just feel like i'm outside the box knocking to be let in and yet seeing others being ushered in.
dang me and the way i see things!! its a curse....

*starts throwing spooky-fetti and runs around in circles* @.@

I'm paranormal