the sun is not shining today which makes me a bit sad. but there is also almost no snow left so this is good!I promised I would start running today though...hm
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the sun is not shining today which makes me a bit sad. but there is also almost no snow left so this is good!I promised I would start running today though...hm
Perhaps starting on Monday would be better? it is already sort of late in the dayI need to find my board so I can start to use it again.
I am looking forward to using it againhm...gender is an odd thing...
I’ve felt these feelings since I was a kid but am scared to share this with others I suppose..
I’ve felt these feelings since I was a kid but am scared to share this with others I suppose..
I’ve been both struggling and euphoric lately...it is...odd. And exhaustingI’m just using this as a sort of journal now, I guess. I don’t want to be an annoyance elsewhere
The bad things latelyIt is hard to explain...I don’t really know what is wrong and it doesn’t feel like the other times. I guess it’s more of an emptiness rather than a pain. If that makes any sense.
I think a lot of it had to really do with that interview and those awful “where do you see yourself in x years” questions
They’ve been on my mind a lot. I don’t have goals, really. I never really have...is this perhaps why I don’t really find life to be enjoyable? Like...hm how to explain. I guess I don’t need to since this is for me but
Life just seems repetitive and boring and I’m not really about it lol. There’s nothing that really makes me like it? Maybe I need to find some goals or something to actually work toward. I dunno.
I’m just irritated that I am scolded for things others are not, I guess.
And feel like people don’t like me and are just trying to be nice. Maybe it’s time to get back on meds for anxiety
I’m hoping to get this job so I can afford to do this. And see a counselor because...oof.
A part of me wants to ask why. But the other part knows to just drop it. Don’t think about it.
Still. It’s hard... being a part of my life for so long. Is it possible to be addicted to someone cuz fuck me, it’s sure how it feels sometimes.
Never should have caved initially. I would have been so much better off, huh.
I want to be able to say it to someone and say it out loud but also...am I really? When I asked about it before I was told no. So I worry that I’m just putting words into my mouth.
Still, things shouldn’t feel...wrong? Bad? Is that the feeling. I’m not sure
Whatever it is, I don’t like it much. I wanna take small steps...things that I’m curious if it will help fix it or at least help? But don’t know how without making people question me
Happier things. I need to focus on this more. I should remember they’re around and spend more time with them. But it’s also kind of hard because I am always so shy.
Hm I thought posting the positive things would help me feel a bit better but it made me feel worse...😰
I don’t understand but...okay
All these changes happening and I get no say in them
But they wanna take away a wall in my room that I use as a part of my bed because “it’ll look nicer and you’d have more room and you can have your old bed back”
1. It won’t. I don’t know why you think removing a wall 3” thick will give me more room to fit a 60+” bed into a space probably 65” long??
2. I don’t want it removed because I like it
3. The door is installed backwards so there’s nothing to stop it also my light switch is on that wall and I don’t want to rewire everything
4. I LIKE IT THERE
maybe stop turning things back on me like for fucks sake I’m just trying to prevent you from getting evicted because you can’t follow fucking rules and you’re being inconsiderate Like fuck man. If it was someone else doing the same shit you’d be pissed off.
wow....that sure is....something...kiddos, don't interact with some of these people lmao
I don’t care if you’re drunk, you’re annoying and you ALWAYS pull this shitThis is why I don’t go places with you
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Having you as a Voltie would be awesome.