Owl's posts
Posted in [s] demonic, others [b] rigs, kickflip
Posted 5 years ago
I want those new common recolors so I need money
Selling:
Demonic
Feline fatale
Fortune teller
Golden bird
Skinwalker
Too hot
Toy soldier
Unique base x2
Weather witch
And 42 ohms at 20v/ohm
Also looking for these items if anyone wants to trade
Bayou
Lethal Dose
soulcaster
Kickflip
Selling:
Demonic
Feline fatale
Fortune teller
Golden bird
Skinwalker
Too hot
Toy soldier
Unique base x2
Weather witch
And 42 ohms at 20v/ohm
Also looking for these items if anyone wants to trade
Bayou
Lethal Dose
soulcaster
Kickflip
Posted in The Surge: Summer '19 Plasma Orbs!
Posted 5 years ago
these common recolors/patterns are amazing definitely my favorite of any of them so far!
Posted in a place for thoughts
Posted 5 years ago
I don’t care if you’re drunk, you’re annoying and you ALWAYS pull this shit
This is why I don’t go places with you
This is why I don’t go places with you
Posted in a place for thoughts
Posted 5 years ago
MY LONGEST YIKES EVER
Posted in a place for thoughts
Posted 5 years ago
wow....that sure is....something...
kiddos, don't interact with some of these people lmao
kiddos, don't interact with some of these people lmao
Posted in Confessions (Make a Confession)
Posted 5 years ago
i don’t know what I want from life
I’m after this job because it pays well and offers stability and benefits. But I don’t want it. I just know it will be a good job.
But I also don’t want to be roped down again... it’s just so draining to think about spending my life doing the same repetitive thing over and over and OVER again.
But change also scares me.
I feel like a huge disappointment and disgrace for not having a job, and having to move back in with my family for [reasons].
I just feel like a total failure and it’s been burrowing into me lately.
I need something to help. I’m so nervous about getting this job and hating it or just falling into that same cycle as before and winding up here AGAIN.
Ugh I don’t know what to do...life has been throwing constant stressors at me for years now and I’m not handling them well and feel like I’m going to completely break down over them...
The last time I did it was way too close for comfort and why I’m [here] now.
I need to talk to a therapist. I need to be on medication. And I need to just...figure myself out, I guess?
I’m afraid of so much in life because I don’t have goals, but the idea of having goals and tying myself to something is also terrifying
Maybe I need to just take a breath and do something that REALLY scares me and break from this anxious she’ll and see if it helps. Do something reckless and see if I can spark something in me, I don’t know.
I don’t know i don’t know I don’t know
I’m after this job because it pays well and offers stability and benefits. But I don’t want it. I just know it will be a good job.
But I also don’t want to be roped down again... it’s just so draining to think about spending my life doing the same repetitive thing over and over and OVER again.
But change also scares me.
I feel like a huge disappointment and disgrace for not having a job, and having to move back in with my family for [reasons].
I just feel like a total failure and it’s been burrowing into me lately.
I need something to help. I’m so nervous about getting this job and hating it or just falling into that same cycle as before and winding up here AGAIN.
Ugh I don’t know what to do...life has been throwing constant stressors at me for years now and I’m not handling them well and feel like I’m going to completely break down over them...
The last time I did it was way too close for comfort and why I’m [here] now.
I need to talk to a therapist. I need to be on medication. And I need to just...figure myself out, I guess?
I’m afraid of so much in life because I don’t have goals, but the idea of having goals and tying myself to something is also terrifying
Maybe I need to just take a breath and do something that REALLY scares me and break from this anxious she’ll and see if it helps. Do something reckless and see if I can spark something in me, I don’t know.
I don’t know i don’t know I don’t know
Posted in a place for thoughts
Posted 5 years ago
Maybe I should just learn to shut up
Posted in a place for thoughts
Posted 5 years ago
maybe stop turning things back on me like for fucks sake I’m just trying to prevent you from getting evicted because you can’t follow fucking rules and you’re being inconsiderate
Like fuck man. If it was someone else doing the same shit you’d be pissed off.
Like fuck man. If it was someone else doing the same shit you’d be pissed off.
Posted in The Surge [Breaking News!]: Mom's Day Knick-Knack
Posted 5 years ago
Ah very nice, thank you so much ghost
Posted in a place for thoughts
Posted 5 years ago
I’m just fucking angry lately
Posted in a place for thoughts
Posted 5 years ago
All these changes happening and I get no say in them
But they wanna take away a wall in my room that I use as a part of my bed because “it’ll look nicer and you’d have more room and you can have your old bed back”
1. It won’t. I don’t know why you think removing a wall 3” thick will give me more room to fit a 60+” bed into a space probably 65” long??
2. I don’t want it removed because I like it
3. The door is installed backwards so there’s nothing to stop it also my light switch is on that wall and I don’t want to rewire everything
4. I LIKE IT THERE
Posted in a place for thoughts
Posted 5 years ago
Hm I thought posting the positive things would help me feel a bit better but it made me feel worse...
😰
I don’t understand but...okay
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I don’t understand but...okay
Posted in a place for thoughts
Posted 5 years ago
Happier things. I need to focus on this more.
i have spent more time with family recently. They cheer me up, even if it’s difficult times.
I should remember they’re around and spend more time with them. But it’s also kind of hard because I am always so shy.
a band I enjoy released a new album recently!! I finally got to listen to it and it’s very nice.
i am doing better in personal projects of mine. New hobbies are fun
the weather has been very nice recently. I need to pay no mind to others and go out in cooler clothing and enjoy the sun.
I should remember they’re around and spend more time with them. But it’s also kind of hard because I am always so shy.
Posted in a place for thoughts
Posted 5 years ago
The bad things lately
just general depression. I think?
It is hard to explain...I don’t really know what is wrong and it doesn’t feel like the other times. I guess it’s more of an emptiness rather than a pain. If that makes any sense.
I think a lot of it had to really do with that interview and those awful “where do you see yourself in x years” questions
They’ve been on my mind a lot. I don’t have goals, really. I never really have...is this perhaps why I don’t really find life to be enjoyable? Like...hm how to explain. I guess I don’t need to since this is for me but
Life just seems repetitive and boring and I’m not really about it lol. There’s nothing that really makes me like it? Maybe I need to find some goals or something to actually work toward. I dunno.
Just...stress... I’m getting so stressed over such unnecessary things. Or so it feels
I’m just irritated that I am scolded for things others are not, I guess.
I feel like a waste of space. Again.
And feel like people don’t like me and are just trying to be nice. Maybe it’s time to get back on meds for anxiety
I’m hoping to get this job so I can afford to do this. And see a counselor because...oof.
i don’t know why I’m so salty about this one but I am haha. I know I shouldn’t be because she is not worth being angry over after everything that happened but ugh. I just...
A part of me wants to ask why. But the other part knows to just drop it. Don’t think about it.
Still. It’s hard... being a part of my life for so long. Is it possible to be addicted to someone cuz fuck me, it’s sure how it feels sometimes.
Never should have caved initially. I would have been so much better off, huh.
boy I almost BROKE down today with my mom. I wanna tell someone how I’ve been feeling but I’m scared to. I don’t feel good in my body tho. It’s been that way a while but wow it’s amplified lately.
I want to be able to say it to someone and say it out loud but also...am I really? When I asked about it before I was told no. So I worry that I’m just putting words into my mouth.
Still, things shouldn’t feel...wrong? Bad? Is that the feeling. I’m not sure
Whatever it is, I don’t like it much. I wanna take small steps...things that I’m curious if it will help fix it or at least help? But don’t know how without making people question me
It is hard to explain...I don’t really know what is wrong and it doesn’t feel like the other times. I guess it’s more of an emptiness rather than a pain. If that makes any sense.
I think a lot of it had to really do with that interview and those awful “where do you see yourself in x years” questions
They’ve been on my mind a lot. I don’t have goals, really. I never really have...is this perhaps why I don’t really find life to be enjoyable? Like...hm how to explain. I guess I don’t need to since this is for me but
Life just seems repetitive and boring and I’m not really about it lol. There’s nothing that really makes me like it? Maybe I need to find some goals or something to actually work toward. I dunno.
I’m just irritated that I am scolded for things others are not, I guess.
And feel like people don’t like me and are just trying to be nice. Maybe it’s time to get back on meds for anxiety
I’m hoping to get this job so I can afford to do this. And see a counselor because...oof.
A part of me wants to ask why. But the other part knows to just drop it. Don’t think about it.
Still. It’s hard... being a part of my life for so long. Is it possible to be addicted to someone cuz fuck me, it’s sure how it feels sometimes.
Never should have caved initially. I would have been so much better off, huh.
I want to be able to say it to someone and say it out loud but also...am I really? When I asked about it before I was told no. So I worry that I’m just putting words into my mouth.
Still, things shouldn’t feel...wrong? Bad? Is that the feeling. I’m not sure
Whatever it is, I don’t like it much. I wanna take small steps...things that I’m curious if it will help fix it or at least help? But don’t know how without making people question me