Lettuce's posts
Posted in ♡ Közi's Kaleidoscope Kandi Karnival ♡
Posted 5 years ago
Oof sounds like the other day here. Our electricity was out for 5 hrs D:
Posted in Trick or Treat event chat an giveaway
Posted 5 years ago
Good afternoon yall
I just woke up
I just woke up
Posted in How many treats/tricks you got?
Posted 5 years ago
20 treats :,)
Posted in I dont know..
Posted 6 years ago
..what to do with myself.
Sigh. Where to even start? This might be jumbled. I need a place to rant (Ha. Hence my mule acc.)
So, I'm like 80% sure I am in an abusive relationship, but I feel like he doesn't..know he's being mentally abusive? He has anger issues very evidently, though I know he won't admit or get checked. He had changed into an asshole and he openly says "yeah im an asshole its my personality". But its not??? Like, he is super sweet most of the time. But he has very negative outlooks on life and honestly... anything. This change really took place when his father died and I know he has unresolved grief. I know he is stressed and upset about his brother whom is struggling with addiction. But he just pushes it off and chooses not to feel or talk about it. Then the bottled up feelings unleash onto me like dantes inferno :(. Also, I have been diagnosed with major depression. It really took me being diagnosed for him to believe I wasnt being lazy or just too emotional. He still doesnt understand it at all tho. He thinks I use my emotions and crying as an excuse or tactic to get what I want but I really am just hyper sensitive.
Hes always threatening to leave me and tells me to pack my shit when we have any fight at all. Used to not be that way. He actually made me leave about a yr ago and if I came back he forced me to leave again.
Im also always accused of flirting. I play xbox and I frequent avatar sites. Any interaction with a male means I am flirting. (Despite me literally being 18 and playing xbox with 14 to 15 year olds..like wtf?)
And always saying he will leave me if I dont find a job or get my license etc (things my anxiety and depression have made me put off but I really am trying.. I just have nobody to help me with learning to drive).
Hes just.. hurtful and mean now. I really dont know if he intends to be..and I dont know if this counts as abusive.
Sigh. Where to even start? This might be jumbled. I need a place to rant (Ha. Hence my mule acc.)
So, I'm like 80% sure I am in an abusive relationship, but I feel like he doesn't..know he's being mentally abusive? He has anger issues very evidently, though I know he won't admit or get checked. He had changed into an asshole and he openly says "yeah im an asshole its my personality". But its not??? Like, he is super sweet most of the time. But he has very negative outlooks on life and honestly... anything. This change really took place when his father died and I know he has unresolved grief. I know he is stressed and upset about his brother whom is struggling with addiction. But he just pushes it off and chooses not to feel or talk about it. Then the bottled up feelings unleash onto me like dantes inferno :(. Also, I have been diagnosed with major depression. It really took me being diagnosed for him to believe I wasnt being lazy or just too emotional. He still doesnt understand it at all tho. He thinks I use my emotions and crying as an excuse or tactic to get what I want but I really am just hyper sensitive.
Hes always threatening to leave me and tells me to pack my shit when we have any fight at all. Used to not be that way. He actually made me leave about a yr ago and if I came back he forced me to leave again.
Im also always accused of flirting. I play xbox and I frequent avatar sites. Any interaction with a male means I am flirting. (Despite me literally being 18 and playing xbox with 14 to 15 year olds..like wtf?)
And always saying he will leave me if I dont find a job or get my license etc (things my anxiety and depression have made me put off but I really am trying.. I just have nobody to help me with learning to drive).
Hes just.. hurtful and mean now. I really dont know if he intends to be..and I dont know if this counts as abusive.