Kcalb's posts

i like doing that a lot! i have matching avatars with @Siron on rec haha
unfortunately i dont have too many items over here to do that yet

Oh god ;-; im super squeamish when it comes to bugs so i totally feel, in a similar fashion i used to eat walnuts (we have a tree in the yard) and they'd sometimes have worms in them (most times you see a lil hole they crawled thru but not always)

I think rather than the contrast between old and new, what really fascinates me is the idea of the events that took place in those old buildings, of the lives ill never get to be part of, all the hopes, dreams and expectations of people who believed maybe in their permanence
Im thinking about the present, and how somewhere in the future everything we knew is going to be the same
And this is a story thats almost unrelated but for me it captures the exact feeling they give me
Ever since i moved into town ten years ago, at the corner of the street that practically circled the farmer's market next to our house there was this newspaper stand.
My school was a pedestrian crossing and a few metres away, and as I got older, because since then id just pass it without a thought, I started buying teenage magazines from there. you know the type, talking about everything teenagers would care, from bands, trends, to puberty related questions and concerns.
The guy who worked there was really nice to me, and as i grew old he sometimes would ask as if pass by to my highscool, still at a walking distance, if I wanted the newest edition to one or other magazine.
At some point, i changed my route, newspapers started selling less, id only pass by his stand once it was already closed.
I started and finished uni, moved out, forgot all about him.
Until one day I get home and mom tells me hes sick in hospital, something to do with his heart. It didn't faze me at first, but id feel something like sadness passing his closed stand.
He died a week or so after, and that was when it hit me. The little stand at the corner of the street was empty, with old papers covering the windows from the inside.
I walked by days later, and half of it was torn open, a chaotic mess of old faded papers in its place.
And now it's gone. theres nothing at the corner of the street, and no sign it ever was.
And i cant stop thinking about the fact that in a way his existence too, was erased. He spent ten years in that little corner, or at least i knew him for that much, and now there's nothing to even prove that.

Not today, but yesterday a group of maybe 10 y/o girls came in n ordered tea. So if someone is taking their drink here i ask them to sit down and i get them their order, so i told them that and they obviously thanked me, and as they were going towards the table went like "goodbye, see you, have a nice day"
I think it was cute idk
How about you?

Wow 10/10

Tbh first off, id 100% regret this one of it was mine
And secondly, i dont have any tattoos so far bc im broke n tattoos are expensive but i def want at least two, one with the artwork jhonen did for msi and another witha big daddy from the game bioshock
Probably ill get some quote from my favourite book as well

hi neko im Cassie!
hows your day been so far?

Happy belated birthday! Im a few months older than you :vanora_sweat:

I,,, think is different to me than i... think
The first one signifies anxiety while the second uncertainty
We'll see,,, maybe is a lot more casual, non threatening than we'll see... maybe
Same for sentences ended with a full stop vs without
You should know vs You should know.

Remember the now famous "my immortal" fanfiction, sonic oc recolors or the many nameless mary sue or self inserts you can find anywhere? They are cringy, sure, but the way people cruelly make fun of stuff like this can be very detrimental for the children who found solace in them?
I remember writing shitty naruto fanfiction or drawing my magical girl persona in middle school and for a long time its made me feel very very ashamed.
And sure, of course this kind of things are funny for the onlooker, because they are childish and self gratifying but they shouldn't be something someone is humiliated, harshly criticised for.
I think the need to laugh at them comes from a place of superiority, from the need to be cooler and more mature.
Anyway whats your take on cringe culture? Have you ever done cringy stuff and if so how do you feel about it now?

@Vii: OMG!!! honestly i wasnt expecting any replies but you made my day!!
God i loved the last blade runner movie so So much! i Live for the cyberpunk aesthetic!! It reminded me of the deus ex games tbh
Speaking of games, have you heard of "The Observer"? It looks and plays out exactly like a Philip K Dick novella. Its one of my favourite games because it reminded me so much of him, his worlds and ideas. If you can, I really recommend checking it out.
I half read - half listened to a scanner darkly. Weird and hopeless just as i like my novels tbh. How was the movie? Also I think there's a miniseries adaptation of the man in the high castle, i never checked it out myself but my boss told me its p neat

my story is going to be a little backwards, as i Loved King as a teen and i feel he was one of the most influential when it comes to my own writing style. I absolutely adored his way of writing, found the gimmicks he put to use to be very clever and refreshing. I think "the stand" was my favourite book of his, but i also loved classics such as and carrie, the shining or misery.
However, i think i was around 20 when my love for his work withered. What actually did it was 11.22.63, which i dont think is a very well known novel of his and even though the plot was interesting enough to keep me going, what happened is i had this sudden epiphany.
I felt that he wasn't writing for me. And obviously he doesn't even know me, so there was no way he was thinking specifically at me when writing or anything. What i felt was completely disconnected from his world perspective, beliefs and ideas. His character types no longer resonated with me, and I know it might have just been that particular novel, but I felt like i wasn't enjoying his writing anymore.
I have yet to open up another Stephen King novel, but I think at some point i definitely will.

Keely Smith - There'll never be another you

Had to google that one so no, damn


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