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Posted 5 years ago
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@xvz: Aside from talking to myself, I try to find something to cope with such as drawing, listening to music or playing Sims 4 if I wanted to.
@xvz: Aside from talking to myself, I try to find something to cope with such as drawing, listening to music or playing Sims 4 if I wanted to.
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Posted 5 years ago
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@xvz: True. *nods* Having care and support would be nice instead of outright punishment, imprisonment and stigma. Then again, it would probably takes years for them to realise...
My relationship with my family is, well mixed. I don't really, really hate them as they aren't bad but sometimes I wish they could listen to me and at least be supportive even if it's for a moment. ...Though I lowkey find myself feel ignored by my family a little, and that leads me to talking to myself just to cope my feelings and sanity whenever I'm actually alone.
@xvz: True. *nods* Having care and support would be nice instead of outright punishment, imprisonment and stigma. Then again, it would probably takes years for them to realise...
My relationship with my family is, well mixed. I don't really, really hate them as they aren't bad but sometimes I wish they could listen to me and at least be supportive even if it's for a moment. ...Though I lowkey find myself feel ignored by my family a little, and that leads me to talking to myself just to cope my feelings and sanity whenever I'm actually alone.
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Posted 5 years ago
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@xvz: Tbh I feel like a complete burden to my family most times, and I thought it would be better if I didn't exist in the first place. Having social anxiety is also making my life even more difficult as I do get really nervous about anything that deals with communication (especially when it comes to face to face/eye contact which I'm having trouble with) since childhood till now.
And true, sometimes living in a country where mental health is looked down upon didn't really help at all and it also doesn't help that there are some countries (including Malaysia) where
@xvz: Tbh I feel like a complete burden to my family most times, and I thought it would be better if I didn't exist in the first place. Having social anxiety is also making my life even more difficult as I do get really nervous about anything that deals with communication (especially when it comes to face to face/eye contact which I'm having trouble with) since childhood till now.
And true, sometimes living in a country where mental health is looked down upon didn't really help at all and it also doesn't help that there are some countries (including Malaysia) where
suicide (whether attempted or not) and assisted suicide are illegal and could get one arrested if they commit one
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Posted 5 years ago
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@xvz: It's not your fault. Either pm or here is fine so I'm okay with them. ...Technically no, I didn't had anyone except my family in my life and I didn't feel comfortable talking about it to my family as I know they will scoff at me for being "crazy" or "nonsense" which pretty much hurts me a bit. It also doesn't help that there is no genuine help/diagnosis for mental health in Malaysia either due to stigma...
...So my only option is to keep quiet, there are few times where I...
@xvz: It's not your fault. Either pm or here is fine so I'm okay with them. ...Technically no, I didn't had anyone except my family in my life and I didn't feel comfortable talking about it to my family as I know they will scoff at me for being "crazy" or "nonsense" which pretty much hurts me a bit. It also doesn't help that there is no genuine help/diagnosis for mental health in Malaysia either due to stigma...
...So my only option is to keep quiet, there are few times where I...
had thoughts about suicide (attempted or not) and sometimes scratching my forearms to cope my frustration/sadness.
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Posted 5 years ago
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@xvz: Mmhmm. :3 Oh! I think there is a tv head from the Ohm My Gosh shop :o I think.
Urmm... I'm not sure if it's okay to talk about it here but
@xvz: Mmhmm. :3 Oh! I think there is a tv head from the Ohm My Gosh shop :o I think.
Urmm... I'm not sure if it's okay to talk about it here but
there are times where I feel like complete sh*t and useless and wonder if it would better if I disappear entirely.
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Posted 5 years ago
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@xvz: Ooo I see! That'd be cool though and it's okay, I think that's a good reference picture already ^_^
It was okay so far but I do have some thoughts sometimes... well deep ones that is.
@xvz: Ooo I see! That'd be cool though and it's okay, I think that's a good reference picture already ^_^
It was okay so far but I do have some thoughts sometimes... well deep ones that is.
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Posted 5 years ago
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@Keturah: True, true. I've been feeling unmotivated lately and yeah, that is true as taking a break is good as well.
@Keturah: True, true. I've been feeling unmotivated lately and yeah, that is true as taking a break is good as well.
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Posted 5 years ago
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@xvz: I see :o and who wouldn't wanna do a cosplay avatar of their favourite chracters? :3 That'd be cool!
@xvz: I see :o and who wouldn't wanna do a cosplay avatar of their favourite chracters? :3 That'd be cool!
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Posted 5 years ago
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*mimicks GlaDOS voice* weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I wonder what will year 2030 look like?
*mimicks GlaDOS voice* weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I wonder what will year 2030 look like?
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Posted 5 years ago
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*mimicks GlaDOS voice* weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Wish I was free without the clutter in my life
*mimicks GlaDOS voice* weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Wish I was free without the clutter in my life
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Posted 5 years ago
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@xvz: Ah I see. *nods* To each own I suppose lol
That's interesting :o I never watched FLCL as a kid before so I don't really know much about it ^_^;
@xvz: Ah I see. *nods* To each own I suppose lol
That's interesting :o I never watched FLCL as a kid before so I don't really know much about it ^_^;
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Posted 5 years ago
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*mimicks GlaDOS voice* weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
*mimicks GlaDOS voice* weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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Posted 5 years ago
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Congratulations! ^^
Congratulations! ^^
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Posted 5 years ago
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@xvz: They're more common as they're probably cheaper than a car and I live in a town where cars and motorcycles are more common although I do see people riding their bicycles and walking (both are too dangerous due to people look like they don't give a damn about the road law/rules and safety (. _ . ; )
@xvz: They're more common as they're probably cheaper than a car and I live in a town where cars and motorcycles are more common although I do see people riding their bicycles and walking (both are too dangerous due to people look like they don't give a damn about the road law/rules and safety (. _ . ; )