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Posted in Do you "shut down" when you're upset?
Posted 7 years ago
I was told I do this a while back, but I never realized it. My voice, if I'm talking, becomes emotionless or deadpan, and it's quite obvious I'm behaving differently. The strange thing is, it sometimes happens when I'm not upset or anything. Might have something to do with subconscious depression or anxiety, as you've said.
Posted in temp → Profile Experimentation
Posted 7 years ago
Your profile is super cute. I've been trying to change mine by looking at some CSS stuff, but it feels so complicated. x.x
Posted in Dark Mana
Posted 7 years ago
@Lunakiri:
"Oh hey," Daniel greeted her with a nod of acknowledgement while shamelessly scouring the fridge. "Fresh made?" He repeated slowly while pulling out a container holding the black forest cake. "D'ya mean... YOU made this and the other stuff? Guess I shouldn't be too surprised, though, considerin'..." Eugene would often cook while explaining the benefits of preparing a nutritionally balanced meal. He didn't bake or dabble in sweets much, but the food he made always looked delicious.
Erica watched as Daniel prepared the table with multiple servings of each food item she mentioned, and a few that she didn't. When it was all gathered, he sat down and clapped his hands together. "Thanks for the food!" He gave her a smile and began scarfing it all down while occasionally pausing long enough to compliment her ability. He also choked a few times, but a gulp of milk fixed that.
As the night went on, the two engaged in some pleasant enough conversation. Erica would find that the man was not the most intelligent person and so his topics weren't the most innovative, but he spoke freely and easily. They would eventually decide to call it a night because of the day's unfortunate events, but Daniel interjected on one point.
"Uhm, ya think I could sleep in another room? I don't really get what's goin' on in Eugene's old one or whatever, but I don't wanna get involved..." He rubbed the back of his neck and went on to say, "S'not like I'm scared or anything! Just, y'know. I don't... do so well with like, supernatural shit. Real shit I can punch."
He likely didn't have to go into any detail because the house was large and naturally accommodating to guests. Erica would give him one of the smaller rooms on the first floor and he was happy with that. As Daniel settled in for the evening, he grew more and more restless. He tossed and he turned, and his eyes wouldn't stay shut. Ultimately though, he would submit to darkness and find that the last thought in his mind was very selfish.
Why do I have to leave?
-
Whenever Erica found her inevitable path to sweet slumber, she would open her eyes a moment later to something perhaps unexpected. She was laying upon a floor of what could only be described as twisting shadow. The darkness stretched upwards as far as the eye could see, but there was also blurring light originating from... hundreds? Maybe thousands? of windows or screens slightly jutting out from the pitch black walls, or what served as the hard boundaries of the space.
"Hello Sister," said a familiar voice. It was cold and monotone, but also undeniably smooth. Unlike Daniel's speech pattern, every word was enunciated perfectly. Eugene stood in front of her with a hand in his pocket. She could hear clicking noises amongst the many... MANY voices echoing around them, but couldn't find a source for it.
"I apologize for earlier," he began simply. "It must have been hard on you, but there was no other choice to guarantee a satisfactory result." He adjusted a pair of glasses resting on his nose, and continued. "Nonetheless, I welcome you to the Black Dream. It is akin to a sea of consciousness."
"Oh hey," Daniel greeted her with a nod of acknowledgement while shamelessly scouring the fridge. "Fresh made?" He repeated slowly while pulling out a container holding the black forest cake. "D'ya mean... YOU made this and the other stuff? Guess I shouldn't be too surprised, though, considerin'..." Eugene would often cook while explaining the benefits of preparing a nutritionally balanced meal. He didn't bake or dabble in sweets much, but the food he made always looked delicious.
Erica watched as Daniel prepared the table with multiple servings of each food item she mentioned, and a few that she didn't. When it was all gathered, he sat down and clapped his hands together. "Thanks for the food!" He gave her a smile and began scarfing it all down while occasionally pausing long enough to compliment her ability. He also choked a few times, but a gulp of milk fixed that.
As the night went on, the two engaged in some pleasant enough conversation. Erica would find that the man was not the most intelligent person and so his topics weren't the most innovative, but he spoke freely and easily. They would eventually decide to call it a night because of the day's unfortunate events, but Daniel interjected on one point.
"Uhm, ya think I could sleep in another room? I don't really get what's goin' on in Eugene's old one or whatever, but I don't wanna get involved..." He rubbed the back of his neck and went on to say, "S'not like I'm scared or anything! Just, y'know. I don't... do so well with like, supernatural shit. Real shit I can punch."
He likely didn't have to go into any detail because the house was large and naturally accommodating to guests. Erica would give him one of the smaller rooms on the first floor and he was happy with that. As Daniel settled in for the evening, he grew more and more restless. He tossed and he turned, and his eyes wouldn't stay shut. Ultimately though, he would submit to darkness and find that the last thought in his mind was very selfish.
Why do I have to leave?
-
Whenever Erica found her inevitable path to sweet slumber, she would open her eyes a moment later to something perhaps unexpected. She was laying upon a floor of what could only be described as twisting shadow. The darkness stretched upwards as far as the eye could see, but there was also blurring light originating from... hundreds? Maybe thousands? of windows or screens slightly jutting out from the pitch black walls, or what served as the hard boundaries of the space.
"Hello Sister," said a familiar voice. It was cold and monotone, but also undeniably smooth. Unlike Daniel's speech pattern, every word was enunciated perfectly. Eugene stood in front of her with a hand in his pocket. She could hear clicking noises amongst the many... MANY voices echoing around them, but couldn't find a source for it.
"I apologize for earlier," he began simply. "It must have been hard on you, but there was no other choice to guarantee a satisfactory result." He adjusted a pair of glasses resting on his nose, and continued. "Nonetheless, I welcome you to the Black Dream. It is akin to a sea of consciousness."
Posted in The Sandbox [Art] ⇒ Shop: CLOSED ⇄ Freebies: OPEN
Posted 7 years ago
@Mica: Always drink milk tea. =D
Posted in Dark Mana
Posted 7 years ago
@Lunakiri:
Kyla blinked at the explanation. "Family secrets, huh? He never mentioned anything, but I suppose that must signify its importance."
She took the clothes and smiled, "Thank you. If you really don't mind talking to him for me, then I won't stop you, but don't let it cause a rift between you. Then again... this is Eugene we're talking about here." She laughed, "He probably wouldn't be that affected even if you did approach him about it..."
She suddenly yawned and held the clothes close to her chest. The events of the day hit her like a ton of bricks. "Wow, I didn't realize how tired I was. I'm sorry, but would you mind if I laid down for a bit? I can't promise waking up until the morning, though."
She stifled another yawn and had to keep herself upright through a wobble.
-
Daniel got out of the shower and looked at himself in the mirror, or rather at Eugene's face. He slapped his cheeks with both hands and a frown. "Wonder if ya can see me right now... or hear what's goin' on. If ya can, hurry up and take your body back... cuz bein' you is slow."
Silence.
"Didn't think it'd be that easy," he smirked and put on the outfit Erica left for him. The dark purple shirt and soft black pants fit perfectly. He dried his hair and put a loose towel around his neck before leaving the bathroom.
He didn't run into anyone else on his way to the kitchen, but he figured Erica must have been busy with something. Maybe that girl woke up. Shrugging in response to his own thoughts, he rummaged through the kitchen for anything he could snack on. Just because he was in control didn't mean he had to neglect Eugene's diet, or ignore what he could taste himself. Thinking of all the junk food he could cram into his stomach was pleasant.
Kyla blinked at the explanation. "Family secrets, huh? He never mentioned anything, but I suppose that must signify its importance."
She took the clothes and smiled, "Thank you. If you really don't mind talking to him for me, then I won't stop you, but don't let it cause a rift between you. Then again... this is Eugene we're talking about here." She laughed, "He probably wouldn't be that affected even if you did approach him about it..."
She suddenly yawned and held the clothes close to her chest. The events of the day hit her like a ton of bricks. "Wow, I didn't realize how tired I was. I'm sorry, but would you mind if I laid down for a bit? I can't promise waking up until the morning, though."
She stifled another yawn and had to keep herself upright through a wobble.
-
Daniel got out of the shower and looked at himself in the mirror, or rather at Eugene's face. He slapped his cheeks with both hands and a frown. "Wonder if ya can see me right now... or hear what's goin' on. If ya can, hurry up and take your body back... cuz bein' you is slow."
Silence.
"Didn't think it'd be that easy," he smirked and put on the outfit Erica left for him. The dark purple shirt and soft black pants fit perfectly. He dried his hair and put a loose towel around his neck before leaving the bathroom.
He didn't run into anyone else on his way to the kitchen, but he figured Erica must have been busy with something. Maybe that girl woke up. Shrugging in response to his own thoughts, he rummaged through the kitchen for anything he could snack on. Just because he was in control didn't mean he had to neglect Eugene's diet, or ignore what he could taste himself. Thinking of all the junk food he could cram into his stomach was pleasant.
Posted in Dark Mana
Posted 7 years ago
@Lunakiri:
Kyla tucked a strand of loose blonde hair behind her ear with a curious look directed at Erica. "A variety of reasons, hm?" She tilted her head. "Well, I understand if you wish not to disclose them on his behalf."
She then grew bright red at the suggestion of her having feelings for him, and waved her hands frantically. "O-of course not! I mean, who would keep chasing after someone after being dumped, and..." Her demeanor changed and she just hunched slightly, "Yes, I do. Is it that obvious?"
She walked over to the nearby bed and took a seat, crossing her legs. She thought hard for a moment when Erica said she'd beat some sense into him. That made her giggle slightly. "I appreciate the gesture. I really do. But... we tried once or twice to make it work. Or at least, I did. For the record, he said it wasn't my fault, and that he was in fact ending it for me."
She leaned back on her hands and kicked her feet back and forth. "That didn't make it hurt any less, though. Eugene's real dense, but I think his heart's in the right place at least?"
If Erica checked, she would see that the black glow around the girl was starting to dim significantly.
Kyla tucked a strand of loose blonde hair behind her ear with a curious look directed at Erica. "A variety of reasons, hm?" She tilted her head. "Well, I understand if you wish not to disclose them on his behalf."
She then grew bright red at the suggestion of her having feelings for him, and waved her hands frantically. "O-of course not! I mean, who would keep chasing after someone after being dumped, and..." Her demeanor changed and she just hunched slightly, "Yes, I do. Is it that obvious?"
She walked over to the nearby bed and took a seat, crossing her legs. She thought hard for a moment when Erica said she'd beat some sense into him. That made her giggle slightly. "I appreciate the gesture. I really do. But... we tried once or twice to make it work. Or at least, I did. For the record, he said it wasn't my fault, and that he was in fact ending it for me."
She leaned back on her hands and kicked her feet back and forth. "That didn't make it hurt any less, though. Eugene's real dense, but I think his heart's in the right place at least?"
If Erica checked, she would see that the black glow around the girl was starting to dim significantly.
Posted in Dark Mana
Posted 7 years ago
@Lunakiri:
"Oh, right..." Kyla looked herself over with a blush and then nodded, "That would definitely be for the best. Let us hurry while he's still indisposed."
She followed Erica quietly, but was quick to speak up when asked a question. "I... don't really hurt anywhere, per se, but I do feel a bit off. It is a relief, though," she pressed a hand to her breast with a sigh of relief. "I don't think they were able to do anything to me, as you stated. It could be that their only use for me was to draw out your brother. Why, I haven't the foggiest. Eugene may be a little..." She thought for a moment and tried her best to throw out a word that was accurate while remaining nice in a sense. "He may be a little cold, but to an extent that a gang would target him?"
She shook her head, "I don't know. What do you think, Erica? You probably know your brother better than I do at this point." Her tone grew low and almost sad, but she just smiled.
"Oh, right..." Kyla looked herself over with a blush and then nodded, "That would definitely be for the best. Let us hurry while he's still indisposed."
She followed Erica quietly, but was quick to speak up when asked a question. "I... don't really hurt anywhere, per se, but I do feel a bit off. It is a relief, though," she pressed a hand to her breast with a sigh of relief. "I don't think they were able to do anything to me, as you stated. It could be that their only use for me was to draw out your brother. Why, I haven't the foggiest. Eugene may be a little..." She thought for a moment and tried her best to throw out a word that was accurate while remaining nice in a sense. "He may be a little cold, but to an extent that a gang would target him?"
She shook her head, "I don't know. What do you think, Erica? You probably know your brother better than I do at this point." Her tone grew low and almost sad, but she just smiled.
Posted in Moble games What are you playing ?
Posted 7 years ago
Final Fantasy Brave Exvius has been my mobile addiction for a long while now. I dabbled in Fire Emblem: Heroes, but I don't like the graphic style for it, and I get my fix playing Fates. XD
Posted in Dark Mana
Posted 7 years ago
@Lunakiri:
Kyla's expression brightened a bit after Erica's words of reassurance. "He's safe then? Thank goodness." She listened quietly for a moment, and then gave a small nod at the question. "I would very much like to change... if it isn't an inconvenience for you, but..."
There was a long, awkward pause as the girl shuffled uncomfortably. "Is he here?" Her tone was hopeful, but she quickly shook her head, "If he is, I don't want to see him. Just knowing he's safe is enough."
She turned away from Erica and pressed both hands against the window sill. "Sorry for putting you through all this trouble," she said aloud. "But thanks. I mean it. Who knows what would have happened to me had you not intervened."
Kyla's expression brightened a bit after Erica's words of reassurance. "He's safe then? Thank goodness." She listened quietly for a moment, and then gave a small nod at the question. "I would very much like to change... if it isn't an inconvenience for you, but..."
There was a long, awkward pause as the girl shuffled uncomfortably. "Is he here?" Her tone was hopeful, but she quickly shook her head, "If he is, I don't want to see him. Just knowing he's safe is enough."
She turned away from Erica and pressed both hands against the window sill. "Sorry for putting you through all this trouble," she said aloud. "But thanks. I mean it. Who knows what would have happened to me had you not intervened."
Posted in Fun Fact: Cost of commons [Updated 2/9]
Posted 7 years ago
This information is really cool to have! Thanks for doing the math. XD
Now I know I have to post a heck of a lot more. >.>
Now I know I have to post a heck of a lot more. >.>
Posted in Dark Mana
Posted 7 years ago
@Lunakiri: (Onwards we go)
Erica opened the door and stepped inside without much hesitation. Outside of the strange happenings in her head, there was nothing to fear from a room she had been in many times before. What she wasn't expecting, however, was for Kyla to be awake and standing in front of the double windows on the other side of the bed. The drapes were drawn open and she was just looking outside, motionless.
It took a few moments for Kyla to acknowledge her, and turn to face her. Even in the darkness, Erica could see the redness around her eyes. The girl raised an arm and wiped away what tears remained before smiling slightly, "Hey Erica..." She glanced aside, "I... remember some unruly men forcing their way inside my home. J-Judging by my current state, they... they probably had some fun with me, haha..." Her laugh was very brief but chilling.
"Guess I shouldn't really care, huh? It's not like he wants me anyway..." She squeezed her wrist and avoided eye contact as much as she could. "Guess I should thank you. I'm... only alive because you came for me, right? It's not like he would care." She smiled, then, but there was very little behind it. Maybe only Erica could see the slight black aura emanating from the girl. It was as if her body was on fire and the darkest smoke was billowing off her form, but she didn't seem to notice.
Erica, in her unnatural perception of emotion, could feel it.
Erica opened the door and stepped inside without much hesitation. Outside of the strange happenings in her head, there was nothing to fear from a room she had been in many times before. What she wasn't expecting, however, was for Kyla to be awake and standing in front of the double windows on the other side of the bed. The drapes were drawn open and she was just looking outside, motionless.
It took a few moments for Kyla to acknowledge her, and turn to face her. Even in the darkness, Erica could see the redness around her eyes. The girl raised an arm and wiped away what tears remained before smiling slightly, "Hey Erica..." She glanced aside, "I... remember some unruly men forcing their way inside my home. J-Judging by my current state, they... they probably had some fun with me, haha..." Her laugh was very brief but chilling.
"Guess I shouldn't really care, huh? It's not like he wants me anyway..." She squeezed her wrist and avoided eye contact as much as she could. "Guess I should thank you. I'm... only alive because you came for me, right? It's not like he would care." She smiled, then, but there was very little behind it. Maybe only Erica could see the slight black aura emanating from the girl. It was as if her body was on fire and the darkest smoke was billowing off her form, but she didn't seem to notice.
Erica, in her unnatural perception of emotion, could feel it.
Posted in Torrent Oblivion [1x1x1]
Posted 7 years ago
Jamie was already awake by the time Marshall let out his scream, but he tried his best to stay focused on the task ahead. Besides, Marshall was prone to nightmares, and the scream just then wasn't nearly as bloodcurdling as some other sounds he had made before. And Canette, to Jamie's knowledge, was still asleep at the camp. If anything serious happened, she would be there, ready and waiting. Hell, she was probably berating Marshall even as Jamie held his sword above the pond.
He was laying on his stomach with a hand propping him up a bit. His head was peeked over the side of the water, and his eyes were wide open waiting for a fish to swim by. He had left his armor back at the camp so he could move more swiftly, but he couldn't catch a break. The fish all darted before he could stab one of them every time they came close, but he didn't have a choice. The toad yesterday completely ate the fishing rod he was so proud of.
Fishing with a spear... or in this case, a longsword, was his only alternative, but he had been at it so long already. Eyes narrowed in determination, he waited for his chance even as a large purple ant slowly made its way through his leggings. He blinked as he felt the tiny legs upon his skin, and then his face went pale as tiny teeth sank into his flesh.
He screamed in pain as the firey bite sent him reeling off the edge of the shore head-first in a comical flip. The microscopic foe that left its mark on his ass flew out of his pants and through the air, legs twitching. "Ow, ow ow ow..." Jamie reared back and sat in the pond with his back to the shore. "I'm so freakin' unlucky," he sighed as more and more fish started to swim up to him.
He was laying on his stomach with a hand propping him up a bit. His head was peeked over the side of the water, and his eyes were wide open waiting for a fish to swim by. He had left his armor back at the camp so he could move more swiftly, but he couldn't catch a break. The fish all darted before he could stab one of them every time they came close, but he didn't have a choice. The toad yesterday completely ate the fishing rod he was so proud of.
Fishing with a spear... or in this case, a longsword, was his only alternative, but he had been at it so long already. Eyes narrowed in determination, he waited for his chance even as a large purple ant slowly made its way through his leggings. He blinked as he felt the tiny legs upon his skin, and then his face went pale as tiny teeth sank into his flesh.
He screamed in pain as the firey bite sent him reeling off the edge of the shore head-first in a comical flip. The microscopic foe that left its mark on his ass flew out of his pants and through the air, legs twitching. "Ow, ow ow ow..." Jamie reared back and sat in the pond with his back to the shore. "I'm so freakin' unlucky," he sighed as more and more fish started to swim up to him.
Posted in Dark Mana
Posted 7 years ago
@Lunakiri:
"Yeah, please don't..." He laughed a bit in response while turning the water on. "I don't know ya that well, after all, and I don't want your bro on some sorta misguided vengeance quest."
. . .VEnGeaNCe. . . She heard the single word shoot through her mind almost as violently as when she received a direct message from Eugene. The voice was completely unrecognizable, but the pronunciation couldn't have made what was said more clear.
Erica then... saw an image, or more accurately a scene that she didn't remember occurring. She saw her and Eugene standing side-by-side as children. They were looking ahead, to the back of what she could only assume was their mother. It was mostly her silhouette, but she could hear her voice too. It was pleasant and soothing just as she remembered, but the things being said were unlike anything she'd heard before.
I need you two to be strong for me. Understand? That doesn't mean going off and getting yourselves killed. Please don't think you need to act on this. You're just children. My sweet, innocent children...
The scene shifted and suddenly their mother was crouched down before them, a hand on each head. Eugene was speaking, but his words were distorted. What her mother was saying, however...
. . . vengeance within you, okay? That isn't what . . .
The image melted into haze, incomplete.
"Yeah, please don't..." He laughed a bit in response while turning the water on. "I don't know ya that well, after all, and I don't want your bro on some sorta misguided vengeance quest."
. . .VEnGeaNCe. . . She heard the single word shoot through her mind almost as violently as when she received a direct message from Eugene. The voice was completely unrecognizable, but the pronunciation couldn't have made what was said more clear.
Erica then... saw an image, or more accurately a scene that she didn't remember occurring. She saw her and Eugene standing side-by-side as children. They were looking ahead, to the back of what she could only assume was their mother. It was mostly her silhouette, but she could hear her voice too. It was pleasant and soothing just as she remembered, but the things being said were unlike anything she'd heard before.
I need you two to be strong for me. Understand? That doesn't mean going off and getting yourselves killed. Please don't think you need to act on this. You're just children. My sweet, innocent children...
The scene shifted and suddenly their mother was crouched down before them, a hand on each head. Eugene was speaking, but his words were distorted. What her mother was saying, however...
. . . vengeance within you, okay? That isn't what . . .
The image melted into haze, incomplete.
Posted in Dark Mana
Posted 7 years ago
@Lunakiri:
"Oh... I was just wonderin' how you were doin' back there. How's it lookin', doc?" He turned his head a bit to catch a glimpse of his shoulder in the mirror, but he didn't want to move too much just in case.
"Looks pretty good from what I can tell," he nodded approvingly. "You weren't kiddin' when you said you could do this. Explains how Eugene patches us up at least."
He slowly hoisted himself up and did a few mock movements with the shoulder to test mobility, but nothing too major. "Yeah... I think this'll do just fine. Thanks Erica." He was facing her, then, and tilted his head curiously. Was something off about her? Nah, couldn't be. "Anyway, I should probably get cleaned up. Think ya could grab me those old clothes now?"
"Oh... I was just wonderin' how you were doin' back there. How's it lookin', doc?" He turned his head a bit to catch a glimpse of his shoulder in the mirror, but he didn't want to move too much just in case.
"Looks pretty good from what I can tell," he nodded approvingly. "You weren't kiddin' when you said you could do this. Explains how Eugene patches us up at least."
He slowly hoisted himself up and did a few mock movements with the shoulder to test mobility, but nothing too major. "Yeah... I think this'll do just fine. Thanks Erica." He was facing her, then, and tilted his head curiously. Was something off about her? Nah, couldn't be. "Anyway, I should probably get cleaned up. Think ya could grab me those old clothes now?"