Honestly, I should expect by now that chaos is a ruling factor in my life. I worship chaos gods, after all...
As some of you may know, I'm getting ready to have a baby. Her due date was going to be June 15th. I was planning on having her at a local midwifery, natural-birth style. I invested a lot of time and money towards this goal.
This week I found out I have gestational hypertension. Basically high blood pressure brought on by pregnancy. It could have been a more serious situation, and could very well develop into something more serious, but for now it's mostly ok. Except, my midwifery plans are no longer an option, and the new place I'm going will have to induce labor about three weeks early.
I really wanted to avoid a hospital birth. I have anxiety about hospitals to begin with, and now I can't imagine them as anything but a great place to catch a pandemic. The only hospital we could find that had midwives and a decent environment for birth is super far away, but it looks like the best option.
I'm super nervous because my plans changed so drastically so close to her due date, but I suppose anything involving babies is wildly unpredictable. I slept so horribly last night about it though... Buh. I need a distraction so I don't stress out over things I can't change.
As some of you may know, I'm getting ready to have a baby. Her due date was going to be June 15th. I was planning on having her at a local midwifery, natural-birth style. I invested a lot of time and money towards this goal.
This week I found out I have gestational hypertension. Basically high blood pressure brought on by pregnancy. It could have been a more serious situation, and could very well develop into something more serious, but for now it's mostly ok. Except, my midwifery plans are no longer an option, and the new place I'm going will have to induce labor about three weeks early.
I really wanted to avoid a hospital birth. I have anxiety about hospitals to begin with, and now I can't imagine them as anything but a great place to catch a pandemic. The only hospital we could find that had midwives and a decent environment for birth is super far away, but it looks like the best option.
I'm super nervous because my plans changed so drastically so close to her due date, but I suppose anything involving babies is wildly unpredictable. I slept so horribly last night about it though... Buh. I need a distraction so I don't stress out over things I can't change.
